Anyone else with SO OCD continually fail at same sex friendships bc you’re terrified intimacy/vulnerability could lead you to have sex with them even though you don’t want to?

This has been in head too

I have been horrible at making new friends of the same sex recently. Meeting new girls makes me scared I’ll meet the one who will confirm my fears.

I want to confront this fear so badly.

Same here. Around women I get this tightness in my chest and an imense anxiety that something sexual is going to happen. It makes me feel like a monster or predator. It’s like I want to do something to find out if all of my thoughts and fears are true but at the same time I am sooo scared.

@Legallyocd Yes it’s literally getting worse I can’t even see women walking down the street it gives me anxiwty

I’m also in a relationship so it makes me super sad when I have these thoughts in my head because I adore him.

I feel sure it’s the ocd. I know reassuring is feeding into it but I never have these fears around men I’m attracted to and I’m also in a healthy relationship with a man.

Sometimes I fear men will think I’m single and flirting and I’ll have to tell them I’m in a relationship but never the level of intrusive thoughts like omg am I sexually aroused or am I gonna have sed with him type thing

@BingBong1! You’re absolutely right. Don’t freak out but im actually crying because im so sorry that you are going through this too. Like you are so brave to be with the person you want to be with and then have to deal with this crap that basically says you made a mistake. If someone hasn’t told you, I really just want to say I’m proud of you.

@Legallyocd Thank you so much that rly means the world coming from someone who understands. You too. So brave and strong to still keep pushing and seeking recovery.