ok so i was watching a tik tok of some tik tokers who got murderd and then i got sad and cried and then i watched more tik toks about them and the situation that happened and in one tik tok they showed the shooter and yeah and then seconds later I was like “wait did I think the shooter was cute?” and i got so anxious for a second and then i calmed down....I’m still calm but the thought is still lingering in the back of my head....ugh I hate this....also it’s 1:25am and im supposed to be sleeping and now i wish i went to sleep earlier so I could’ve avoided this thought and anxiety....