I am loosing control over everything I truly hate myself and what this disease has done to me. I used to be so loving towards my bf and cuddly and warm. Now I feel like I snap a lot and push him away and I hate myself for it. I’ve been doing a lot better, but then it all circles back to intrusive thoughts I’ve had before and I can’t say to myself “maybe yes, maybe no” My boss was telling me today that it’s obvious someone we know is gay. And that this person couldn’t accept themselves. And my thoughts were RACING. “Is that you?” “People think that of you too” Has anyone else had these thoughts? I just want to feel normal again.