One weird side affect of this theme is that when other people talk about their sexual experiences I get intrusive images in my mind of them doing the act and worry I like the images.

Was listening to the diarrhea song cuz I remember hearing it as a kid, this one guys version ended with “when she’s sitting on your face and you get a bad taste.” Anywho I had a whole thing bc of that involving different people but the main one that’s bothering me is I thought of my sister and her bf. They’re pretty edgy and I guess in general edgy people are freaky. Anywho I had the urge to imagine them while he gives her oral. And I tried to ignore it but it seemed too real and so I gave in and imagined it. And shocked, I think I liked it. Whether it’s because it’s sexual in nature so it was a general thing, or a taboo thing and that’s why I liked it BECAUSE it was gross and I shouldn’t think about it. But anyhow people say ocd can’t make you do things but I believe it still in a way made me purposely think that. Any words of advice appreciated !!

are they truly intrusive thoughts or am i thinking and creating automatically graphic images that i dont want to think? i think it happens because it's too easy once you're anxious abt it. i dont enjoy it. i just saw a trigger and had a graphic disturbing se&ual image in my head.

constantly when I deliberately imagine sex scenes looking at the photo that triggers me (my sister's face), it's like I'm imagining, projecting how I see myself how self pleasure myself, and I feel like I can, I have some drive, and it's like there are no limits, like the more I imagine the stronger it is... it scares me a lot, and I think I'm the only one who has it that way, and that it's not part of ocd...