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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
Hey I’m here to talk. I’m feeling the same way
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- 3y
Hey :) I see my bf in two weeks and I’m just really worried about seeing him. Because of all the what if questions. Like what if I don’t like kissing him. Even though I obviously have in the past. So I’m worried about losing him and then it’s just going to confirm even more in my head that it’s because I’m gay. What about you?
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
@Whyyocd Same thoughts girly. But trust me give yourself some compassion and add some space to the thoughts. There are some thought diffusion exercises that you can check out on YouTube that help a lot. For example instead of saying I think I am gay you say I’m having the thought that I think I am gay. Try not use this as a compulsion to neutralize your thoughts but more so you can create space for yourself to observe them and not engage.
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@Legallyocd Okay thank you ☺️ This theme is just so hard and believable :(
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- 18w
I keep getting these groinal responses when I think about kids or see one and it's really distressing, I only just learned that OCD can make you feel that and it's not actually attraction but it's so hard to remember that and I've seen people talking about accepting uncertainty but I'm so scared to think "maybe it's attraction maybe it's not" instead of "no it's not attraction that's disgusting" and idk what to do
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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- 11w
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
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