I just want to share this because I’ve kept it a secret for so long. Only my therapist knows & I want to be able to share. I’ve struggled with sexually intrusive thoughts since I was in second grade. They were basically cannabalistic thoughts, about ppl preparing to cook me and eat me in sexual ways. I only recently was diagnosed with OCD and it was the biggest relief of my life. I’m starting to understand my mind and why it works the way it does. It’s amazing to find that other ppl struggle in similar ways too. I remember chatting with ppl online about these thoughts which I thought was a disgusting fetish of mine, that shared the same fetish, asking them how they dealt with the shame of the thoughts. No one ever felt shame. They all told me “it’s just a fetish”. I never understood how they couldn’t be disgusted. But now I do. I have OCD.

Thanks for sharing! Sexual intrusive thoughts are the worst. They really made me feel like a dispicable person but telling my therapist was the best thing I’ve ever done. I hope you have opened up about them and if you haven’t I hope you will.

You definitely are not!

Same here, I’m hoping ERP will help me as I’m planning on doing it with my therapist. Have you opened up to your therapist about this?

Thank you for your response & letting me know. I’m so glad! You are not alone!

That’s true & thank you. How do I know if it’s a fetish or OCD tho?

@Confused OCD The thoughts aren't really the problem. Like many people may think they have a fetish but don't put much thought into it where it controls their mind/life. Fetishes are when you enjoy the subject matter and want to continue looking at such content. But it comes naturally, not from forcing yourself to look at content to see if it arouses you. So don't watch that content just to see if you're aroused, that is a compulsion.

@Wormiez Also your shame around the problem could be extreme and unnecessary. Talking to your therapist could help solve what makes you feel so ashamed

@Wormiez That’s a great explanation. Thank you @Wormiez!

There is a type of vore called hard vore. Which involves graphic digestion and blood. Orgasm will feel good no matter the content it's your body releasing hormones. If you don't feel aroused when on Prozac by those thoughts specifically then it's possible you never were into it. But either way your shame is excessive and you should continue talking to your therapist about it.

@Wormiez Thank you! You understand this so well. I really really really appreciate your insight!!!