I keep having the same intrusive thought or image and it won’t give me a break, trying to convince me that I like the thought and I want it and I’ve never felt this with any of my other intrusive thoughts so what makes this so different? Why is this happening? I can’t even tell if it’s ocd or not but I’m praying to God that’s all it is. I wish I had answers or clarity but I can’t seem to figure it out. I know I’m not supposed to try and figure it out I get that but I have to make sure it’s not true. What if it is true and I’m in denial? What if I do actually like it? I just want it to go away…I’ve been so depressed for the past week (since I’ve gotten the thought and this all started) and it just won’t let up. I can’t take it anymore. I want to break free from all this. I’m sick of it. I feel like I deserve my misery 😭💔 I really am sorry I keep posting about all this. I just want someone to understand

Thank you 🙏🏻

@Just Breathe ❤️ I'm sorry if I haven't been understanding friend... and I'm sorry I haven't been replying to you as much, I haven't been able to get on the OCD app much the past few days. I've just been busy, and when I have had any free time I've just felt exhausted from life and my OCD and I haven't really felt like doing anything. I don't know why this is happening to you Just Breathe... I really don't... and I don't know why any of this is happening to any of us... but I do believe that you're truly experiencing OCD and that it's REALLY fighting hard against you right now. You're NOT in denial, you do NOT actually like the thought you're having. What do you think would convince you that the thought you're having isn't true? If you can't convince yourself that it isn't true then I don't think our reassurance we give you will help much either unfortunately... I don't say that to be rude though friend, I'm just saying that to make the point that reassurance does NOT work... You know that it's an intrusive thought from your OCD that you're having, you said that yourself, and that alone proves that you do NOT like the thoughts that you're having, it shows that it's just simply an intrusive thought, but I realize the thought is making you miserable though, and I can relate to that feeling, I've worried about thoughts for days and weeks at a time too, but I can tell you that it will be okay friend. Take a moment to breathe and just let it sink in that you are a child of God and remind yourself that God loves you. You do NOT deserve this misery that you're feeling, you deserve to be happy friend, you REALLY do deserve happiness Just Breathe. Well, I realize I'm 21 hours late or so to this post, so I'm really sorry about that... but I hope this reply will give you some encouragement for today. Keep up the good fight friend, it will all be okay. Have courage! And know that we are here for you. I am here for you! :) I have another song I think you'd like, if you'd like to hear it... but if not that's okay too. It's not a Christian song, but it is encouraging. I think it represents the theme of this community very well actually.

@Drew777 Thank you so much friend! I truly understand. I’ve been trying to distance myself from the app for a bit to see if maybe it would help. I hope this all will pass. I understand I’ve been asking too much for reassurance and I truly apologize for that. I just get where I have to have the answers and know what’s happening. Unfortunately that’s how OCD is. I hope that you are doing well friend! What’s the song you would like me to listen to? I love hearing new songs to add to my playlist!

@Just Breathe ❤️ The song is called "Falling Down" by Concord Dawn (Featuring. Tali) Here's a link to the song. - https://youtu.be/969t3YNDenA It's a Drum & Bass song, but I feel like the lyrics are very encouraging. :)

@Drew777 Awesome I will listen to it

@Just Breathe ❤️ You're not asking too much for reassurance, you're just in a difficult place right now where reassurance feels like the answer, and I can relate to that, I believe all of us on this app can. And you just want and need someone to help you and encourage you right now, which is something we all want and need and can relate to too! I can understand why you feel that way, I really can friend. You're not alone in this Just Breathe, just remember that.

@Drew777 Thank you for understanding

@Just Breathe ❤️ You're always welcome friend. :) I hope you'll like the song, I know it's probably pretty different than what you would normally listen to though.

I will check it out thank you friend!