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i feel like i’m lying to myself too :(
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Yeah I'm sorry, if you ever need to talk, I'm here for you, I ask cause we're the same age
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Not uncommon. I sometimes think that too. I think I might be a serial killer and OCD is just a fraud. Well thoughts are just thoughts you know. OCD targests right where it hits you. Don't be fooled or actually don't even be bothered after all they are just thoughts.
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Like it's like I'm trying to get help but my head is saying, "it's just bullshit, you don't really love her, why are you going through all this?" And I just wanna leave her but I feel that it's a compulsion becuase I always have this sickening feeling when I think about it. But then I think what if it never goes aways cause I'm with her, and I panic, I just wanna be with her
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@neverstopfighting literallt have this exact thought process
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@ anonymous Yeah! And I was doing better too, I thought. This is a horrible relapse. I'm so glad you understand me, but at the same time, I'm full of doubt :D if you need someone to talk to, im here
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@neverstopfighting Also I may be asking cause I'm alone for the weekend and I'm afraid of my own thoughts
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I can understand. I have been through ROCD as well and it costed me my relationship ngl. But thoughts are just thoughts my friend. You need to accept these thoughts. Don't try to find any meaning. Just accept, let them pass and move on. Move on even if you still have anxiety. But don't stop and start pondering. It's just a trap.
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Thank you, you've been very helpful, but how come I feel like blurring out that I need to leave? When this all started I used to say "I'm terrified of doing something stupid like leaving her and I love her so much" but it's getting worse and harder to say those things, I feel like I'm drowning. I hope it's ocd
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Also thank you im here for you if you need anything
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@neverstopfighting Thanks for your kind words. Really appreciate it. It's definitely OCD. If you think you need more help, I would suggest seeing a therapist as they would be more trained to help you than me.
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@akarsh9 I'm seeing someone on here tomorrow, this weekend is really tough and I'm having trouble getting through it tbh
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@neverstopfighting Do something to get your mind off it. I know it's difficult. But I tried meditation and it helped me greater than i anticipated at first. Try this video: https://youtu.be/dPvrwa95tEc
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@akarsh9 Thank you so so much for being kind, tbh Im kinda losing myself and I'm scared
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@neverstopfighting "There is no point in trying to wrestle a thought while you're in survival brain" This helped me a lot. I hope it helps you. Try the meditation video I sent you. I am sure it can help you.
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@akarsh9 Thank you so much, I just don't wanna lose her. And I believe that. I wanna get better, but at the same time I wanna leave, it hurts :(
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@akarsh9 So another question, how real was it when you were going through rocd with no help, did it make you physically ill?
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@neverstopfighting I wouldn't say physically ill but emotionally demanding. It definitely took a toll on my health because it wasn't just my ROCD but also my ex partner was abusive.
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FINALLY identified a core fear of mine and it is deceit and lying by omission. My biggest compulsions are confession & rumination. I immediately WANT to confess to whoever the theme is about, BUT since I am NOT acting on the compulsion (*yay*), I feel like I am lying by omission. For example, I will think of a mistake I made in the past, become anxious at the thought that my partner would break up with me over it, and then I want to confess so that he has all the information he needs to make an accurate decision on if he wants to be with me. Otherwise, I feel as though I am withholding pertinent information and his decision to be in a relationship with me is based on lies & fabrication. On one hand I am proud of myself for not compulsively oversharing / acting on compulsivity. On the other hand I worry I am stepping out of my values of honesty & integrity. Or perhaps worse, claiming “compulsion” in the name of hiding from the possibility of whatever consequence may result in me sharing the mistake. Any recommendations?
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I don’t even say I have OCD anymore because it feels like I’m lying. Maybe this isn’t about OCD anymore and is about accountability instead. Accountability for how twisted and sick I am. Sometimes I force myself to admit that it’s not OCD and that I’m just dark and twisted and need to protect the world from me. I mean god this feels too real to be OCD. Sometimes I look back at my memory and wonder if I did certain stuff on purpose and ask myself who could do stuff like this? Everyone says it’s OCD but it feels too real. I have a gut feeling that I’m a deviant psycho. I want to be gone.
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How do I know if my obsession really is ocd or If im lying to myself about a past intention
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