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It’s like “okay cool I’ve found an answer” and then it’s like but wait no that’s not true! And it’s attached with this weird sense of excitement
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Yes!
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I feel that completely. It's because the anxiety and questioning can become so unbearable that you're even deciding you'd rather be the orientation that you aren't or break up with your boyfriend than have to deal with it anymore. Totally normal and it feels the ocd more :(
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@alexisrae1999 Fuels*
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@alexisrae1999 Exactly! I’m dealing w so-ocd but it now does it with the same sex and it really feels like I feel that way
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@cozycat Its super tough. But the more you do exposures it goes away trust me
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@alexisrae1999 It’s gotten better for sure! But now it’s just telling me I feel like this and I need to pack my bags and leave. And I’m like wtf I was just so anxious why does it now feel like this
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@cozycat I actually broke up with my ex because of ocd (I didn't even realize it was ocd back then) because my thoughts were making me feel so crazy. He was pretty toxic looking back though 😂 but it was mainly ocd. I battled with the same stuff as you did and always felt weird on and off and anxious on and off. Super confusing
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same! For the last 2 months my brain has been convincing me that I have a crush on a guy I go to school with even though I love my boyfriend and would would choose him any day but it makes me feel so guilty and sad like I have to break up even thought I don’t want to but these thoughts about having a crush make me feel so depressed because I don’t want that at all, It’s so painful
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I have and it's scary cause those thoughts aren't true but my brain makes me think they are
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SAME. it’s like they feel factual. Or when it tells me I have a crush on people
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@cozycat That happens with me too cause then I feel guilty that I think someone else is attractive when I already have my better half...
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@Animaniash Yep. And then it all just feels true and I’m like alright please stop? I feel so weird when I look at him. And when I tell myself I know I love him it sounds like a lie
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@cozycat YES! I do love my boyfriend truly but I always worry I sound fake when I say that after I find someone else random attractive because my brain sucks. I hate feeling fake even though I'm not it constantly scares me ...
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@Animaniash Exactly! I’m at this point where I don’t feel scared but I know I am mentally if that makes sense. And I’ll tell myself I want to be with him and my brains like “no you dont”
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@cozycat Yes exactly! He's so understanding of my situation and condition and says he will make sure nothing ever happens to us. But of course my brain comes back with the "does he really mean that? What if you're the reason he leaves? What if you leave him?" And I break down crying
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@Animaniash Ugh I feel that. Or “you know you don’t love him just do it”
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@cozycat That one is the worst one 😭
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Hey everyone, I wanted to come on here today to just share this post because I’ve been struggling with this recently. I just wanna know if this is a common thing in relationship OCD. So last Friday me and my boyfriend had a conversation that was important, and my emotions were high and I got a little emotional about something he said and we had a long talk about it, the conversation went great and afterwards everything was okay. On Saturday I was so excited to see him after work and I was overflowing with feelings of happiness and excitement. Sunday was great and we stayed on FaceTime just enjoying the day together after he went home that morning, and then came Monday. I remember getting a thought like this, “What if I’m losing feelings for him and I’m just leading him on?” And even this thought, “I don’t really feel anything towards him right now, does that mean I fell out of love with him?” And then the anxiety came, I could literally feel myself breaking out in cold sweats and I could feel the pain in my chest after these thoughts crossed my mind. But what bothers me so much about this is on Saturday and Sunday I felt so content and happy with him and I was so happy and I didn’t have any anxiety whatsoever, and then Monday came, and I had those thoughts and I feel almost numb and I can’t feel anything else except the feelings of worry and fear and my anxiety has been at a all-time high and I keep feeling this pain of guilt and hurt in my chest and I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced the same. Because personally one thing I hate is that one day I can be so happy and energetic and then the next day I can feel numb and feel absolutely nothing towards my boyfriend. I’m not sure if this can correlate with my menstrual cycle as well, but I’ve heard that that can also make your relationship OCD worse and cause you to feel differently about your partner. Just wanting to see if anyone has dealt with the same!
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I’m struggling with something I’m afraid to even admit out loud. I’ve been in a long-term relationship with someone I love deeply. He’s kind, safe, and emotionally close to me — and we’ve built a life together. But I keep obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction anymore. Or maybe… I never truly did? At the beginning, I felt butterflies, excitement, connection — and I assumed that meant I was also attracted to him physically. But now, after reading so much and reflecting more deeply, I’m starting to wonder if I ever truly felt sexual desire in the way I was “supposed to.” Maybe my feelings were more about emotional longing, comfort, and romantic closeness — but not sexual chemistry. And now I don’t know what that means. OCD makes it so much worse. It constantly tells me: – “If you really loved him, you’d want him.” – “You’re leading him on.” – “What if you’re lying to yourself?” – “If you try to fix this and fail, you’ll have to leave.” I feel stuck between wanting to fight for this relationship — and being terrified that trying will just prove it’s hopeless. Has anyone experienced something like this? Can OCD really make you question something so deeply personal? And how do you move forward when even trying feels terrifying? Any thoughts or support would mean the world right now.
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I’m really anxious because I know my ocd is really bad right now so I shouldn’t try to figure it out cause my thinking is a mess but I’ve been having feelings of like I’m not sure if I love him anymore or worrying that I haven’t felt a lot like numb (a lot because ocd has been getting worse and worse) and thinking of like how I’ve been focusing on the negatives and only been looking at him through that lens and analyzing and also feeling like I don’t want this anymore. Basically just like negative thinking in feeling like I’m really scared it’s that it’s I don’t love him cause I don’t want it to be over and the thought of having someone replace him makes me ill. But like it feels like I’m not seeing him how I used to and it makes me upset. Today I was near someone I was like oh this person is cute and then I was thinking that the possibility of meeting someone new sounds exciting and now I’m freaking out because this in combination with feeling like maybe I don’t love him anymore is bad. Also my thoughts keep changing. and like sometimes it feels like I don’t care at all and this has happened but like worst it’s ever been and then other times I’m like I do care I do still feel. I’m just really anxious has anyone else felt this before and it was still ocd? 😭😭
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