Has anyone ever had moments where it felt like you were certain you didn’t want to be with them or love them but then you notified yourself still arguing with that? I’ve been struggling with feeling like this off and on and like I am in denial. It kind of happened when I was dealing with SO-OCD as well.

Yes!

I feel that completely. It's because the anxiety and questioning can become so unbearable that you're even deciding you'd rather be the orientation that you aren't or break up with your boyfriend than have to deal with it anymore. Totally normal and it feels the ocd more :(

@alexisrae1999 Fuels*

@alexisrae1999 Exactly! I’m dealing w so-ocd but it now does it with the same sex and it really feels like I feel that way

@cozycat Its super tough. But the more you do exposures it goes away trust me

@alexisrae1999 It’s gotten better for sure! But now it’s just telling me I feel like this and I need to pack my bags and leave. And I’m like wtf I was just so anxious why does it now feel like this

@cozycat I actually broke up with my ex because of ocd (I didn't even realize it was ocd back then) because my thoughts were making me feel so crazy. He was pretty toxic looking back though 😂 but it was mainly ocd. I battled with the same stuff as you did and always felt weird on and off and anxious on and off. Super confusing

SAME. it’s like they feel factual. Or when it tells me I have a crush on people

@cozycat That happens with me too cause then I feel guilty that I think someone else is attractive when I already have my better half...

@Animaniash Yep. And then it all just feels true and I’m like alright please stop? I feel so weird when I look at him. And when I tell myself I know I love him it sounds like a lie

@cozycat YES! I do love my boyfriend truly but I always worry I sound fake when I say that after I find someone else random attractive because my brain sucks. I hate feeling fake even though I'm not it constantly scares me ...

@Animaniash Exactly! I’m at this point where I don’t feel scared but I know I am mentally if that makes sense. And I’ll tell myself I want to be with him and my brains like “no you dont”

@cozycat Yes exactly! He's so understanding of my situation and condition and says he will make sure nothing ever happens to us. But of course my brain comes back with the "does he really mean that? What if you're the reason he leaves? What if you leave him?" And I break down crying

@Animaniash Ugh I feel that. Or “you know you don’t love him just do it”

@cozycat That one is the worst one 😭