I’m really freaking out because I went in a pizza place to pick up an order and the cashier looked younger than 18 and I had an intrusive thought not really sure if it was intrusive I’m hoping it was, saying she was hot. I thought she was pretty hopefully that’s not weird I don’t mean it to be but I just feel so weird and guilty now…I’m really hoping it’s just ocd and not a real opinion

It freaks me out because what if I really do think that and I’m a really bad person for it. I feel awful

@Just Breathe ❤️ Yeah that always happens with my ocd . If ocd is right then right now I am a pedophile who sexually abused children who is attracted to her family members and killed children

@Just Breathe ❤️ Hey friend. I know how you feel... I see people that I think look attractive too, and sometimes they are younger also... I feel guilty because for one I'm married so I feel bad I'm finding anyone else attractive at all. And two, I feel like I'm a pervert for thinking someone who is younger than 18 is attractive. But you know, we're going to see people in life sometimes who we just might find attractive, and there is nothing wrong with acknowledging when someone is attractive. It's not like you told her "hey, I think you're hot!" or like you're just sitting around fantasizing about her, because that isn't you Just Breathe, that's not what your doing, I've talked with you and know you well enough now that I can honestly say this is your OCD, and that This thought that you had, this INTRUSIVE thought that you had is just from your OCD friend. Nothing more. I know I'm probably giving you reassurance, and I'm sorry... I'm sorry you're dealing with this friend... I'm sorry we're all dealing with OCD... please just don't give up friend, it will be okay. It will.

@Drew777 This actually helped me who struggles with pocd a lot. Thank u

@Drew777 I just feel so bad 💔

@Just Breathe ❤️ I'm sorry that you feel bad friend... but I don't believe you have any reason to feel bad, but I realize that probably doesn't offer much help or encouragement to you though... I'm about to go to bed, but I'm sorry I can't stay and talk more, I'm just really tired, it's 12:55 a.m. here... :( I really hope and pray that you'll have a peaceful night though Just Breathe. God bless friend! I'll talk to you more tomorrow!

@Anonymous321 You're welcome friend! I'm so glad to know I could help! :) I hope you'll have a great night Anonymous321! God bless! 😀

@Just Breathe ❤️ Hey, I hope you're doing well today friend. If you wanna talk I'm here to talk.

@Drew777 Thank you friend! Hope you are doing well. Been struggling with intrusive thoughts but trying to stay positive.

@Just Breathe ❤️ Glad you're trying to stay positive even through the intrusuve thoughts friend. :) I hope I haven't been annoying you by talking to you too much lately.

@Drew777 No not at all! I appreciate it actually. It’s so nice to talk to someone who understands when it seems like I’m surrounded by people who don’t understand. Plus having someone to talk to is awesome! I’ve just been trying to stay off the app for a bit but I will always answer friend

@Just Breathe ❤️ Yeah, I've been trying to stay off the app a little bit too, sometimes it overwhelms me because I'm sad that I can't help everyone on this app. But I know I can't help everyone, and it's not my job to help everyone. I'm so glad that I can be here to help you feel understood Just Breathe and just be someone that you feel like you can talk to. :) I realize we call each other "friend" on this app a lot, but I just want you to know I'm not just saying it in a casual sense. I really do see us as friends Just Breathe, I really do. I know I don't know you super well or anything but I still feel like we've formed a good friendship. :) Did you have a good day? How did work go today? :) I just listened to an OCD livestream on YouTube and it was pretty helpful. :)

@Drew777 I totally get that though. I wish I could help more people but the littlest things can make all the difference. Just being there for someone can help. Just helping them know they aren’t alone can spread kindness that they could spread to others too! :) I agree, I definitely think of you as a friend and I believe we have a good friendship as well. I’m not very good at making new friends because in real life I’m shy but it’s definitely something I’m working on. Plus having OCD has kind of set me back from forming friendships too because I feel like I’m a burden to people and I don’t want to have them have to go through it with me too so I just kind of stay quiet about it. I have one friend that knows about it and my theme and it terrifies me that they could tell someone and them misunderstand it and twist it and I really don’t want that. That’s why when I come on here I don’t have to worry about that. You understand and so do others in this community and that’s a blessing. So I truly do appreciate you friend and I’m glad that we can vent and chat about things. Hopefully I’m making sense and this isn’t weird but hopefully you get what I’m saying. I had an alright day. Besides ruminating a lot lol. I had my first appointment with my new therapist today which was nice. I was actually off work today and I’m off tomorrow so I definitely have to get some cleaning done tomorrow blehhh. How was your day today? I didn’t watch this one but I think I watched Dr. Patrick McGrath’s webinar last week and it was helpful he even answered one of my questions which was cool 😎

@Just Breathe ❤️ The littlest things really can make the difference a lot... I love to be there for people, it makes me feel like I'm being of use in this world. I never want anyone to feel alone... I think that's why I really wanted to reach out to you on this app when I first saw a post of yours because you just seemed like you felt so alone and it made me so sad to see so I just wanted to help, but I'm glad you feel like you can relate to people on here. :) I'm not very good at making friends in real life too because I'm pretty shy as well. I'm not as shy as I used to be though, but I'm still working on it. :) I think this app can help to build our confidence though. I want you to know that you're not a burden to me Just Breathe, and I'm sure the rest of the OCD community would agree that you're not a burden to any of them either. I'm afraid of my intrusive thoughts getting twisted too or people not understanding and just getting embarrassed, so I can relate to what you mean completely. I wouldn't even say I have any friends who know about my OCD, just a lot of family knows about my OCD. I'm glad you had your first appointment with your new therapist today! 😀 how did it go? I hope you got along with them well! :) I'm glad you didn't have to go to work today and that you don't have to go tomorrow either. :) hopefully you can get the cleaning done tomorrow that you need to get done. And my day was decent, I just had to work a lot today, but it was still good. :) I think I watched Dr. Patrick McGrath's livestream last week too (or maybe it was the week before), he didn't answer my question though, lol, but that's okay though. I'm glad he answered your question friend! 😊

@Drew777 Thank you so much friend for understanding! The appointment went well! She was really nice and helpful so far so I think it’s going to go well. Yeah his webinars and the others are super helpful. I need to watch more of them though

@Just Breathe ❤️ Of course, I'm glad to be understanding and be here for you friend! :) I'm glad your new therapist was nice and helpful to you, I hope and pray that your therapy with her will continue to go well. :) and yeah, all of his webinars and the others too do seem to be very helpful for sure, I really should try to start watching more of them to myself. I hope and pray we can both continue to fight and win in this war against OCD! Determination! 😀

@Drew777 Yes I agree! We got this! 😎