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I also have thoughts like, do I actually want to be with my partner or do I just feel bad for them? What if I just don’t want to hurt them? But I love my partner and I choose to be with them despite all these thoughts, feelings, and urges
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It’s horrible, I know exactly what you’re going through
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I’ve been dealing with ROCD for about a month and some timenow and can tell you you’re not alone. I feel the same way. I was head over my heels over my girlfriend and so in love, with intense feelings of infatuation before my ROCD really took control, it was almost like a switch. It kills me because I know I love my partner and want to be with them more than anything but something feels off, like my body refuses to love them or doesn’t want me to feel when I do so bad. I get thoughts and feelings like I don’t genuinely care about them anymore or love them, and I’m at the point where I don’t know how I actually feel anymore. Do you feel this way? You’re not alone!
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Yeah I feel like I don’t want to be with her, but I know I want to be with her, I know I want her, but I feel like my feelings have gone for her, but I want everything to do with her at the same time
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You are not alone! Experiencing this also despite really wanting to be with my boyfriend and see a future w him. Feels like ocd is robbing me of being fully present and experiencing the relationship but choosing them despite the ocd thoughts, feelings (or numbness), etc.
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I feel like I can’t enjoy the relationship, I should be happy but I don’t feel anything
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I feel the exact same way! I think the biggest thing that all scares us is the “feelings” aspect of it. We are all taught through society and social media that love relies on feelings of infatuation and you need to feel it or it won’t work. A YouTube Chanel that I love to watch is called “awaken into love” she mentions that love is not a feeling, but a choice. But I know exactly how you guys are feeling, I see a beautiful future with my girlfriend as well but it feels like my feelings have gone as well. I think part of this is due to us comparing on how we used to feel so we will be disappointed on how we feel now. I know anxiety and OCD can really mess with your feelings and well being. Stay strong we will get through this
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@Anonymous Thank you for your comment, its appreciated
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going through the same thing rn
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I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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When my boyfriend and I are apart, it honestly feels like I've lost all feelings for him. I start questioning everything, wondering if I even love him at all. Then, when we're finally together again, the memory of those earlier doubts creeps in and completely ruins the moment. I get so caught up in overthinking and analyzing my feelings that I can't even enjoy being with him. It's like I'm constantly second-guessing myself. The worst part is, sometimes later, when we're still together, I do feel the love. But then the anxiety kicks in again! I start worrying that I'm just faking it because I had those doubts earlier in the day. It's this endless cycle of questioning, doubting, and overthinking, and it's exhausting. I'm really struggling to stay present when we're together, and it feels like this constant cycle is preventing me from truly connecting with him. We have been together for three years and we love together, and I just started feeling this way about a month ago; it’s been almost every day since. One day, I randomly thought about breaking up with him. Our relationship is healthy, especially compared to my previous toxic one, where I was anxiously attached for two and a half years. My boyfriend is very supportive of me. I have talked to him about my doubts and everything I’m experiencing, and he continues to support, care for, and help me through it all. I am very grateful for that. One aspect of my current relationship that I would like to improve is our communication, but we are both willing to work on it together. I often find that my overthinking leads me to question whether I really want to try to fix things or if I’d rather just continue as we are. This creates a constant push and pull in our relationship. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Any advice on how to break this cycle and just be present in the moment? I'd love to hear from anyone who's been through something like this.
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I can’t stop thinking to myself “what if I don’t love her” but deep down I know I love her and that’s why I’m getting pissed off with these unwanted thoughts because it’s putting doubt in my head when in reality I love her what should I do?
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