I’ve been dealing with ROCD for about a month and some timenow and can tell you you’re not alone. I feel the same way. I was head over my heels over my girlfriend and so in love, with intense feelings of infatuation before my ROCD really took control, it was almost like a switch. It kills me because I know I love my partner and want to be with them more than anything but something feels off, like my body refuses to love them or doesn’t want me to feel when I do so bad. I get thoughts and feelings like I don’t genuinely care about them anymore or love them, and I’m at the point where I don’t know how I actually feel anymore. Do you feel this way? You’re not alone!
Yeah I feel like I don’t want to be with her, but I know I want to be with her, I know I want her, but I feel like my feelings have gone for her, but I want everything to do with her at the same time
I also have thoughts like, do I actually want to be with my partner or do I just feel bad for them? What if I just don’t want to hurt them? But I love my partner and I choose to be with them despite all these thoughts, feelings, and urges
It’s horrible, I know exactly what you’re going through
You are not alone! Experiencing this also despite really wanting to be with my boyfriend and see a future w him. Feels like ocd is robbing me of being fully present and experiencing the relationship but choosing them despite the ocd thoughts, feelings (or numbness), etc.
I feel like I can’t enjoy the relationship, I should be happy but I don’t feel anything
I feel the exact same way! I think the biggest thing that all scares us is the “feelings” aspect of it. We are all taught through society and social media that love relies on feelings of infatuation and you need to feel it or it won’t work. A YouTube Chanel that I love to watch is called “awaken into love” she mentions that love is not a feeling, but a choice. But I know exactly how you guys are feeling, I see a beautiful future with my girlfriend as well but it feels like my feelings have gone as well. I think part of this is due to us comparing on how we used to feel so we will be disappointed on how we feel now. I know anxiety and OCD can really mess with your feelings and well being. Stay strong we will get through this
@Anonymous Thank you for your comment, its appreciated
going through the same thing rn