- Username
- joeyharrington82
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Healing is a lot of up ad downs, for sure.
i am having an obsession right now and i want to do my ritual so bad. but i know if i give in, i will take a giant step back when i’ve been making progress. i feel the way you do of my OCD wanting nothing to do with exposure. i feel more safe and more comfortable when i give in. it’s gotten to the point where it consumes my whole entire day and that’s one of the reasons why i keep exposing myself to my obsessions because that’s a big way of overcoming it. if it starts to affect everyday, that’s a good reason to expose yourself. it’s very hard absolutely, but you can do this!!!!
try not to give in no matter how bad you want to! resist, resist, resist!
Oh yes! ERP is not fun or easy. But it works. Your OCD will throw a hissy fit and will do anything to convince you not to do ERP. It knows that if you start practicing ERP it will no longer have the upper hand. But do not listen! Decide that you are not going to allow OCD to bully you or steal anymore of your life. Get mad at OCD and channel that into ERP. Once you start doing mid level and high level exposures the urge to do a compulsion will be very strong. But before doing an exposure decide in advance that you are not going to do a compulsion no matter what. If you have a failed exposure, so what? Try again. These are some things that have really helped me. Hope they help you too
This is me right now, I’m having a mental break down right now because of it
It feels like I can never even get to be able to get there. It shakes me to my core and writing out my fears, triggers, and compulsions today for my therapist made my OCD finally feel real and that it’s not just my anxiety. Has anyone else struggled with this? Any tips for newbies who are scared 💩less?
I need a different perspective on this. I feel like I'm being run through the ringer. I'm doing what I can to avoid reassurance and not avoid triggers but I get triggered every day. I'm trying so hard to sit with the panic and the horror but it's so hard. It gets to the point I feel physically sick. Is there anything that I can do to help with this? I feel alone. I don't feel strong, I feel like a punching bag. Why is this so hard to master? I really want to know it gets easier. I've been suffering from POCD that has evolved and gotten worse and worse over the past eight months that has been torturing me multiple times on a daily basis and I feel like I'm drowning. I want to run away and hide because my life feel like it's seconds from being ruined. Please, please tell me this gets easier. That this ERP therapy will stop making me feel like I'm dying. The small moments of victory feel so brief only for me to get hit with another wave. There is so much uncertainty over such a horrific thing I feel ill. I feel afraid to be alone with my mind. Please if anyone out there can please give me tips on how to handle ERP. One moment I think I'm finally beating this thing and the next it's got me pinned and I'm terrified my life will be ruined. I want my peace back, I need help and I'm doing everything I can to resist compulsions but I feel so alone and dirty and disgusting. Please help me. Thank you for any advice 💕
Recently started ERP and first I was very optimistic and hopeful about my decision and I was managing yk being exposed to my thoughts and fears during session but now my compulsions are super super bad I feel like I’m almost like a failure and that I’m never gonna be able to get better because I am doing my homework but it’s just so difficult cause I am trying so hard to resist a compulsion but today it was just so so difficult my compulsions went out of control
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