Anyone else find ERP incredibly difficult? My OCD does not want any part of it. I feel helpless because I keep giving into compulsions and a small part of me knows that the only way out is to stop compulsions. My OCD says otherwise, however. It has even gone so far to convince me that I actually cannot ever accept uncertainty and I find it so hard to not believe it. I know I will only ever find out if I stop compulsions but it is so damn hard and now OCD is getting in the way of my school work. One week I'm highly motivated and ready to fight, then the next week I'm so low and cannot stop ruminating. Then when I want to try again I know I'll just give in again. Much love for anyone suffering from this nonsense.

Healing is a lot of up ad downs, for sure.

i am having an obsession right now and i want to do my ritual so bad. but i know if i give in, i will take a giant step back when i’ve been making progress. i feel the way you do of my OCD wanting nothing to do with exposure. i feel more safe and more comfortable when i give in. it’s gotten to the point where it consumes my whole entire day and that’s one of the reasons why i keep exposing myself to my obsessions because that’s a big way of overcoming it. if it starts to affect everyday, that’s a good reason to expose yourself. it’s very hard absolutely, but you can do this!!!!

try not to give in no matter how bad you want to! resist, resist, resist!

Oh yes! ERP is not fun or easy. But it works. Your OCD will throw a hissy fit and will do anything to convince you not to do ERP. It knows that if you start practicing ERP it will no longer have the upper hand. But do not listen! Decide that you are not going to allow OCD to bully you or steal anymore of your life. Get mad at OCD and channel that into ERP. Once you start doing mid level and high level exposures the urge to do a compulsion will be very strong. But before doing an exposure decide in advance that you are not going to do a compulsion no matter what. If you have a failed exposure, so what? Try again. These are some things that have really helped me. Hope they help you too

This is me right now, I’m having a mental break down right now because of it