Manz
- Date posted
- 3y
Junior96!Junior96!
- Date posted
- 3y
I’m going through the same thing. Would you mind sharing what you’re going through . I could pray for you and give you advice
ManzManz
- Date posted
- 3y
hey! thinking a lot. yesterday i ended up in shock and dissociated which did not help anything. but then i was able to calm down and get grounded again. when i heard about ERP my mind went straight to "okay now i have to be an expert at this right now" so ive been doing a lot of back and forth about what thoughts are ocd and feeling like i am harming myself if i dont "get it right". then of course i start doubting whether or not i have ocd and if erp can be effective. one of my big go-to compulsions that ive identified is seeking reassurance or giving myself reassurance and i honestly cant imagine not doing those things. i feel like its almost wrong to not do them or unnatural and in the logical part of ny brain i keep telling myself its becuase i have ocd that i would feel like that. its just feels like im caught in a thought loop and i cant know what im supposed to do or not do. 🤷🏽
Junior96!Junior96!
- Date posted
- 3y
I understand that . Reading what you just typed to me literally reminds me of myself . I am literally going through the same thing . I know how it feels to think that way . I just want to say that it is OCD . You’re having thoughts that is consuming your time and peace . You are constantly in your head , so to speak . You are seeking reassurance, which is a compulsion . You are constantly trying to analyze yourself and every thought . In a mind like ours , we feel that analyzing , reassurance , and taking control of each situation is going to make the issue better , safer , or peaceful….temporarily. The reason we keep coming back to the same issue is because it doesn’t work . ERP is something that I’m going to take as well. I start in 2 weeks . I’m not sure how it’s going to work for me or you , but I’m aware that a lot of people have tried it , and the success rate is high . Every time we seek a compulsion to make it better , it’s going to be worse because the problem is still there . I believe that the ERP will help us realize the issue , and diminish it . It will be a process because it’s going to take time . We have to retrain the way that we think . Are you a believer in Christ Jesus ?
Junior96!Junior96!
- Date posted
- 3y
I get what you are going through . I really do . I’m here going through the same . We have one another to talk to . I’m a believer in Jesus. Through Him , we have peace , love , joy and eternal life . Please get to know Him if you already dont . If you do know Him , worship , pray , cry , talk , and give it all to Him . Can you believe that He wants to take all of our problems? He literally wants to take it from you and from me too ! He died for us . We dont have to live this way . When we feel alone , scared and confused , He is there . He understands you and know you better than you know yourself . He’s so patient with us and doesn’t want us to be overwhelmed. All of the fears and frustration isn’t of Him . It’s the enemy who hates you. It can also be an imbalance in our brains. Just know that He is hear to help . Ask for help . Pray out to Him. We cannot do this on our own .
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