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Iam 16 by the way. I saw a 10 year old boy. I thought that boy is handsome. You know everyone has their own type people who they think or find handsome/pretty to their standard. And also a type who they find attractive. So I had crushes on boys all the time and they somewhat have similarities between all the crushes I have. So the 10 year old boy who I thought was handsome also had the same features as the boy who I had crush on when I was 10 years old. Then I had a thought I would have had a crush on that small boy if I was his age. I don't why I thought like that? Now I feel anxious and guilty , it feels like iam attarcted to that kid and it feels real. That kid really looks like my childhood crush and all the kids I think handsome or pretty looks like my childhood crushes. Does this mean iam attracted to kids. But I don't like kids in that way, I don't like kids in a romantic way nor a sexual way Am I a bad person? Am I a pedophile? Why am I like this?
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@BlueMountain I don't know what to do, I can't stop crying and iam having an exam in 10 hours and I didn't study anything because of OCD. I can't focus.
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@BlueMountain I just can't, I feel anxious and I feel worthless
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@BlueMountain Tq for your kind words, but I don't think I can feel better anysoon. I understand what you are trying to say, but my life is totally Wrecked. The only reason I am alive is because of my parents, they are working very hard to give a good life to me.
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@BlueMountain My problem my thoughts come back when iam feeling better, when I happy and it ruins everything. I remember all my forgotten old OCD thoughts which I moved on from whenever I am feeling better or happy. I don't know why this happens to me, I just wanna end everything, but I can't because of my parents. Sorry for disturbing you
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Can someone please offer words of advice :(
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
Shaodidi
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I’m overwhelmed, I can’t stand it.
I keep getting thoughts of this 6 year old kid n I don’t know what to do, they keep coming and they give me a sense of attraction, I don’t wanna be attracted to kids, it feels too real as well, I feel a need to check if I was attracted or not constantly, and it genuinely feels like attraction, please help me I don’t wanna be a pedo. Whenever I try to think abt something romantic or about someone my age I’m actually into, that kid keeps popping up.
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I think I enjoy my thoughts
I just had intense sexual thoughts of this 6 yo, I got intense groinal response and I felt like I genuinely liked the thoughts, like I had 0 distress from the thoughts and I felt intense groinal response, I felt like I wanted the thoughts, now I feel like a litteral pedo, I don’t wanna be a pedo, idk why I felt that way towards the thoughts, but it felt genuine, like attraction and enjoyment, I’ve not been diagnosed with pocd and I just started therapy, can someone please help me? Idk why this happened or if it even is pocd, I don’t wish to be a pedo but I feel like one rn.
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