Somebody please reply to me. I need to talk to someone right now. I saw a small kid and I thought that kid was handsome. Then I suddenly had a thought like that kid is totally my type. Why did I think like that. Am I a pedophile now? What should I do?

Iam 16 by the way. I saw a 10 year old boy. I thought that boy is handsome. You know everyone has their own type people who they think or find handsome/pretty to their standard. And also a type who they find attractive. So I had crushes on boys all the time and they somewhat have similarities between all the crushes I have. So the 10 year old boy who I thought was handsome also had the same features as the boy who I had crush on when I was 10 years old. Then I had a thought I would have had a crush on that small boy if I was his age. I don't why I thought like that? Now I feel anxious and guilty , it feels like iam attarcted to that kid and it feels real. That kid really looks like my childhood crush and all the kids I think handsome or pretty looks like my childhood crushes. Does this mean iam attracted to kids. But I don't like kids in that way, I don't like kids in a romantic way nor a sexual way Am I a bad person? Am I a pedophile? Why am I like this?

@BlueMountain I don't know what to do, I can't stop crying and iam having an exam in 10 hours and I didn't study anything because of OCD. I can't focus.

@BlueMountain I just can't, I feel anxious and I feel worthless

@BlueMountain Tq for your kind words, but I don't think I can feel better anysoon. I understand what you are trying to say, but my life is totally Wrecked. The only reason I am alive is because of my parents, they are working very hard to give a good life to me.

@BlueMountain My problem my thoughts come back when iam feeling better, when I happy and it ruins everything. I remember all my forgotten old OCD thoughts which I moved on from whenever I am feeling better or happy. I don't know why this happens to me, I just wanna end everything, but I can't because of my parents. Sorry for disturbing you