TW POCD I’m really freaking out because I just had a random thought that I think was an intrusive thought I’m not entirely sure but it was soooooo disturbing! I had a thought about a family member that OCD likes to attack a lot. It was about my niece who’s staying with my family next week and I don’t think I’m going to be able to handle the intrusive thoughts. I really don’t. I’m already having them and she’s not even here. The intrusive thought was about going to a store that she likes to go to and in their Halloween section they have this green wig and I thought at first it would be hilarious and silly ya know but then I had a horrible thought that it would be “sexy” or “hot” if she wore it and now I’m very disgusted and freaked out. I’m just venting but I’m really upset now and I don’t know what to do. I’ve also struggled with when I have intrusive thoughts like that, that I actually feel like it’s real and I do actually think that but I know deep down it can’t be true because that’s just not who I am. I really care about my niece and would literally do anything to protect her and make sure she’s safe and try to be a good role model to her. OCD just really sucks man 😭💔

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juicy

Date posted: 4y

It really does suck, i'm sorry <3 hope you are sleeping!

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

I’m not. I can’t sleep because what I said above is really bothering me

juicy

Date posted: 4y

@Just Breathe ❤️ does anyone in your family know you have intrusive thoughts?

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@juicy Yes my mom does

juicy

Date posted: 4y

@Just Breathe ❤️ is she helpful at all with things related to this? i want you to get the help you need to be comfortable, you're dealing with a lot it's super stressful and I hope you have have an easier time.

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@juicy She’s very supportive and is somewhat understanding. She doesn’t quite understand how my ocd works and it’s kind of frustrating but she is supportive. I have a therapist though so hopefully everything will be ok. Thank you I truly appreciate it

Hope

Date posted: 4y

A thought is just a thought doesn’t mean anything even if it feels real - I can think I’m going to be a millionaire or I am a millionaire -doesn’t make it true, what helps me is to not label any thought feeling sensation etc - they are all meaningless until we assign meaning , I hope this helps, I know it’s harder said than done 🙏

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Thank you so much for your help. I just get so upset because the thoughts are so freaking scary

Hope

Date posted: 4y

I totally can relate the thoughts can be so horrifying- we aren’t our thoughts they just happen to us- they don’t mean something about us- this is the illness of ocd latching on to what you love ❤️ if you can try a diffuse yourself from them and be like this is something happening to me this isn’t me, that might help, also showing yourself lots of compassion and self love for this illness is so hard ❤️

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Yes very true. I have a hard time loving myself because I tend to believe that it’s all my fault and blame myself. The thoughts are just so disturbing and I get so disgusted and upset and I can’t seem to help it. So yeah I will definitely try that thank you for your help and for understanding

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

It’s also 4am and I can’t sleep because of this crap…

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