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It really does suck, i'm sorry <3 hope you are sleeping!
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I’m not. I can’t sleep because what I said above is really bothering me
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@Just Breathe ❤️ does anyone in your family know you have intrusive thoughts?
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@juicy Yes my mom does
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@Just Breathe ❤️ is she helpful at all with things related to this? i want you to get the help you need to be comfortable, you're dealing with a lot it's super stressful and I hope you have have an easier time.
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@juicy She’s very supportive and is somewhat understanding. She doesn’t quite understand how my ocd works and it’s kind of frustrating but she is supportive. I have a therapist though so hopefully everything will be ok. Thank you I truly appreciate it
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A thought is just a thought doesn’t mean anything even if it feels real - I can think I’m going to be a millionaire or I am a millionaire -doesn’t make it true, what helps me is to not label any thought feeling sensation etc - they are all meaningless until we assign meaning , I hope this helps, I know it’s harder said than done 🙏
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Thank you so much for your help. I just get so upset because the thoughts are so freaking scary
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I totally can relate the thoughts can be so horrifying- we aren’t our thoughts they just happen to us- they don’t mean something about us- this is the illness of ocd latching on to what you love ❤️ if you can try a diffuse yourself from them and be like this is something happening to me this isn’t me, that might help, also showing yourself lots of compassion and self love for this illness is so hard ❤️
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Yes very true. I have a hard time loving myself because I tend to believe that it’s all my fault and blame myself. The thoughts are just so disturbing and I get so disgusted and upset and I can’t seem to help it. So yeah I will definitely try that thank you for your help and for understanding
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It’s also 4am and I can’t sleep because of this crap…
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I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.
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Hi NOCD community, I was hoping to get some advice from fellow sufferers. In December we welcomed the first baby into the family, my beautiful niece. Since then, my POCD has been awful, which I know is probably very normal. Last week, in the middle of a very high stress day in my family, I was changing my niece and as usually happens, I got intrusive thoughts about awful things people do to babies when changing them. The thoughts were so harrowing to have as I was also changing her at the exact same time, and I felt my hands just quickly want to finish patting her dry before putting her nappy on, and for some reason, my heart dropped with that hand movement, because I was afraid that I had acted out the awful thoughts in my head, in a moment of mania because my morals, values and heart do not align with abuse of any kind, especially to children. My niece is my everything, and I know I would never want harm to come to her in any way, shape or form. I love her endlessly. I am having therapy, but have only had a couple of sessions. But, I cannot shake the 'what if'. I am tortured over trying to remember what it was I did that made my heart drop, but I can't, and its getting fuzzier and fuzzier the more I try to remember. Could anyone offer any advice on this please? Thank you.
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𝕊𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕪 𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕚𝕕𝕖𝕟𝕥 😞𝕋𝕎𝕋𝕎𝕋𝕎 ℙ𝕃𝔼𝔸𝕊𝔼 𝔻𝕆ℕ'𝕋 ℝ𝔼𝔸𝔻 𝕀𝔽 𝔼𝔸𝕊𝕀𝕃𝕐 𝔻𝕀𝕊𝕋𝕌ℝ𝔹𝔼𝔻 𝔹𝕐 𝕋ℍ𝔼𝕄𝔼𝕊 𝕎𝕀𝕋ℍ 𝕂𝕀𝔻𝕊 hi everyone, I am really struggling with something disturbing and I'm so afraid I'm a PDF. So my sis came to visit with my nephew for the first time. So the other day we were taking pics with the baby I was already feeling kinda nervous cuz I never held a baby before. Anyway it was my turn and I like I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him( not exactly the thought but the of thought was more graphic and I don't wanna disturb anyone). And I can't remember if I thought that while I was bumping him on my stomach (like how people bump babies on their hips) or before I started doing so. Anyways I can't really remember what my reaction to that thought was or if I started bumping him before or after I had that thought... So I tried not to think much of it but over time I started to spiral really bad and wonder why I thought that and why then I would bump him on my stomach after having that thought or during. I just feel so disgusted. Like was I curious about it? Did I disregard the thought because my brain thinks disturbing things? Ik right now away from that situation that ofc I have no sexual interest in my nephew at all. I played with him and helped changed diaper and everything and never had the urge to do anything inappropriate to him besides that one weird instance. So like I'm so disturbed like did that mean something? I have P OCD but that didn't really feel like an intrusive thought? I also can be very impulsive, and if it was impulsive does that mean I had a desire? Now I'm terrified of having kids even though I wanted some or to foster some. I mean I know but myself I'm not sexually attracted to kids but then why would I think that I am so disturbed really and feel so sick. 😞😞😞😞 I don't know what to do I'm so scared about what my motivation was I feel so bad and scared😞😞😞😞
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