It’s feeling like I’m really convinced I’m a p :( Like all these thoughts, feelings just everything is really convincing and consuming me like everything of just being a possible bad or weird creepy person feels already true and that it’s me .. :/ idk what to do maybe maybe not is not really working that much only sometimes but sometimes I can’t win against my thoughts or talk myself out of my thoughts yk like to neutralize it to make sure it’s not true or wasnt true

the goal isn't to win or talk yourself out of it, i would say that's a compulsion. the theory is that sitting with the uncertainty is what neutralizes it- this is really hard to do alone and might not always be possible to sit with. It's not your fault, it's white supremacy colonialism. This is awful to go through, I wish you weren't experiencing this

Haven't I seen this post from you before? At least if you're seeking reassurance, don't do it here. I'd advise not to do it at all, because you really can get better.

Supremacy * freakin auto correct