I’ve been dealing with ROCD for over a year now… obsessing non stop but now it feels calmer but yet I am still the same… I have had loving moments with my partner. I am still 2nd guessing everything worried if I am with him for the wrong reasons…. ☹️ everytime I think about having sex with him I think about how I felt last time and it makes me wanna avoid it. I am at a loss honestly…

that is 100% your ocd. never make desicions when you’re in an anxious state like that. I know we’re not supposed to give reassurance on this app but i think that u could use some short term. u love ur husband and everything will be ok

Your body doesn’t understand what’s going on. All it understands is your under distress. There’s this vicious cycle happening right now. Your ocd sends out intrusive thoughts, which cause the body distress out of habit, then you add to the distress by being stressed that you have an intrusive thoughts, which in turn makes your body send out more alarm bells that something is wrong. You’re not going to win this battle by fighting ocd. Nor are you going to win by logically arguing with it. Put your weapons down. Accept the feeling. The feeling doesn’t feel good. But it exists. Stop resisting it. Stop trying to make decisions. That’s your logic trying to play the game. Should I break up? Should I stay? Don’t play that game. Put down what you’re carrying. Let it go. It’s scary. It feels like ego suicide. It is. Let the ego identification go. The less you attach to the story of your feelings. The less it will cause you harm. Your relationship might look different now. It may feel different now. This is the new normal. Learn to accept that you can be with a loved one and not feel what you expect to feel. This is okay. It will take time to adjust to this feeling. Eventually you willl adapt, and ocd will stop attacking. You will gain clarity and understand everything I’m saying. Just trust it, and don’t logically persuade anything.

@Sasha Reading this really did help me think. I’ve been trying to ignore all the annoying feeling I’ve been having. I was actually able to tell my partner I want to get married after we our moved out of our roommates house. But I still sadly tend to overthink and it’s hard for me to say I love you to him even though I do. My sex drive is still 0 sadly.

@Mandy7710 You don’t have to ignore the feeling, but you do have to accept it. The feeling is there, and it’s not up to you whether it comes or goes. There’s a powerful paradox in nature. When you want something, you push it away. You create new obstacles and expectations, and the thing you want is never in grasp. And even if you have it, you destroy it. But if you renounce your need of it. If you accept the possibility of never having it. If you are able to be so not attached to the outcome, that you are fine if it does and fine if it’s doesnt; then this is when it all will happen. This is when you will get what you wanted. It might come in a different form. But peace and happiness will be there.

I keep testing myself over and over again saying I’m not in love with him… just for a reaction… Honestly it doesn’t feel like ROCD at all anymore… but I know I don’t wanna leave….