cozymushroom
- Date posted
- 3y ago
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I’m not gunna reassure you and say yes this is ocd. But what I will tell you is that ocd will try anything to trick you into thinking that you found “your truth”. I also am going through rocd and sometimes it feels like that. But you have to hold onto that little hope. That you do love him. Hold onto that. Just know that you are not alone and we are here for you. I suggest looking up Awaken into love on YouTube, she has a lot of good content and she also went through rocd. Just try not to use her videos as reassurance or as a complusion. I know right now it seems like everything is different but you just have to accept that’s how things are right now. Keep doing erp and I promise things will get better.
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y ago
That’s your ocd talking. Don’t listen to it. Do the opposite of what it tells you
cozymushroomcozymushroom
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Are you positive. It feels so genuine. Like I don’t feel anxious or anything
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@cozycat I don’t want to reassure you but from other posts iv read it does seem that you love him. Or else you wouldn’t be having such a hard time. As an exposure, write a break up letter. I can’t tell you what to do, you just have to trust yourself. And I know it’s hard with ocd cause you can’t trust anything. Ask yourself, if you didn’t have ocd would you be having urges of breaking up with him?
Jayjayg9494Jayjayg9494
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Try to be kind to yourself @cozycat I know it can feel impossible. Try and go for a walk grab a coffee, don’t sit init both literally & mentally. I’ve just taken myself out, 1. To pick up my prescription, but I’ve stopped in a cafe I love & got a coffee and very late lunch/ early dinner (I’m in the UK) maybe reach out to your therapist on Monday morning. Slow steps, I’ve just spoken to my GP and been prescribed something to hopefully help with the thoughts & anxiety. With my new job I’ll be signing up to therapy privately. It will get better because your taking the right steps 💖💖
cozymushroomcozymushroom
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Thank you! It just feels so real it’s crazy
cozymushroomcozymushroom
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It’s like I feel happy about it. And it was like “partners name we have to break up” and that made me think it felt good.
LoverGirlLoverGirl
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You are not alone! :)
cozymushroomcozymushroom
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It’s like I want it though. And like I’d feel so much better
Jayjayg9494Jayjayg9494
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Thank you so much for this because it’s all I’ve been thinking about for the past 3 days. It’s awlful, yesterday I spent the whole day in bed just feeling broken. But knowing there are other people in the world experiencing this & recovering makes me feel hopeful.
cozymushroomcozymushroom
- Date posted
- 3y ago
It feels like I don’t even like him any more. It’s insane. I used to be so anxious and now it just feels as though I feel this way
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