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I’m not gunna reassure you and say yes this is ocd. But what I will tell you is that ocd will try anything to trick you into thinking that you found “your truth”. I also am going through rocd and sometimes it feels like that. But you have to hold onto that little hope. That you do love him. Hold onto that. Just know that you are not alone and we are here for you. I suggest looking up Awaken into love on YouTube, she has a lot of good content and she also went through rocd. Just try not to use her videos as reassurance or as a complusion. I know right now it seems like everything is different but you just have to accept that’s how things are right now. Keep doing erp and I promise things will get better.
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- 3y
That’s your ocd talking. Don’t listen to it. Do the opposite of what it tells you
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Are you positive. It feels so genuine. Like I don’t feel anxious or anything
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@cozycat I don’t want to reassure you but from other posts iv read it does seem that you love him. Or else you wouldn’t be having such a hard time. As an exposure, write a break up letter. I can’t tell you what to do, you just have to trust yourself. And I know it’s hard with ocd cause you can’t trust anything. Ask yourself, if you didn’t have ocd would you be having urges of breaking up with him?
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Try to be kind to yourself @cozycat I know it can feel impossible. Try and go for a walk grab a coffee, don’t sit init both literally & mentally. I’ve just taken myself out, 1. To pick up my prescription, but I’ve stopped in a cafe I love & got a coffee and very late lunch/ early dinner (I’m in the UK) maybe reach out to your therapist on Monday morning. Slow steps, I’ve just spoken to my GP and been prescribed something to hopefully help with the thoughts & anxiety. With my new job I’ll be signing up to therapy privately. It will get better because your taking the right steps 💖💖
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Thank you! It just feels so real it’s crazy
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It’s like I feel happy about it. And it was like “partners name we have to break up” and that made me think it felt good.
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You are not alone! :)
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It’s like I want it though. And like I’d feel so much better
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Thank you so much for this because it’s all I’ve been thinking about for the past 3 days. It’s awlful, yesterday I spent the whole day in bed just feeling broken. But knowing there are other people in the world experiencing this & recovering makes me feel hopeful.
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- 3y
It feels like I don’t even like him any more. It’s insane. I used to be so anxious and now it just feels as though I feel this way
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- 15w
I keep having this overwhelming thought of "I need to break up with her," however I really don't want to. It causes me so much anxiety when I try to fight the urge to the point that I'm bed ridden and unable to work. Is this normal for ROCD or am I just fighting my actual feelings?
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- 13w
I’m really anxious because I know my ocd is really bad right now so I shouldn’t try to figure it out cause my thinking is a mess but I’ve been having feelings of like I’m not sure if I love him anymore or worrying that I haven’t felt a lot like numb (a lot because ocd has been getting worse and worse) and thinking of like how I’ve been focusing on the negatives and only been looking at him through that lens and analyzing and also feeling like I don’t want this anymore. Basically just like negative thinking in feeling like I’m really scared it’s that it’s I don’t love him cause I don’t want it to be over and the thought of having someone replace him makes me ill. But like it feels like I’m not seeing him how I used to and it makes me upset. Today I was near someone I was like oh this person is cute and then I was thinking that the possibility of meeting someone new sounds exciting and now I’m freaking out because this in combination with feeling like maybe I don’t love him anymore is bad. Also my thoughts keep changing. and like sometimes it feels like I don’t care at all and this has happened but like worst it’s ever been and then other times I’m like I do care I do still feel. I’m just really anxious has anyone else felt this before and it was still ocd? 😭😭
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- 10w
My brain keeps comparing how I felt then with the same thoughts to now and how it is diff now to prove it had changed. I’m feeling like I know it isn’t right and that maybe I’d pair better and I want to be with someone who is good for me but I also don’t want to break up and can’t tell if that’s the ocd using his faults against me. I feel like if I were to tell someone I have no feelings at all for him anymore I’d know I’d be lying and doesn’t feel right but when I say the opposite it doesn’t feel right either. I’m also worried that this time it is real and it’s the guilt of not telling him that’s making the ocd worse not that it’s just ROCD. My thoughts are also saying so many diff things I’m confused. It feels like I can’t connect to him anymore or like I don’t have empathy which scares me cause I know I did before and I felt it but is it just that I’m frustrated w some of the issues? But it’s upsetting it feels like I don’t have the endearing feelings and love I felt and I want it to come back but then I also think I don’t cause then it will prevent be from seeing what else is out there And the thing is looking back on how it was I feel like I could def see how that was ocd but this is different… and like I at least felt I knew I loved him or wanted to be with him and i had thoughts of wanting to be with someone who this or someone who this but I didn’t actually want it and now it feels like this time I rly do mean it like I want to find better qualities but I still don’t wanna move on from him and my brain is like wel that’s how everyone feels when they breakup regardless…it rly doesn’t feel like ocd anymore 😭 and my thoughts keep saying if you don’t you don’t like this or that and it most likely won’t change cause you have been with him so long why are you with him and then I feel guilty like I need to tell him
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