Hello, don't worry this isn't reassurance seeking I am just genuinely curious and a bit confused about Harm Ocd. I'm just wondering whether Harm Ocd involves the fear of other people causing harm to other people? Like not necessarily the fear of myself being is the one causing the harm, but more like fearing other people's ability to cause harm to other people (especially those I care about) and then me not being able to do anything about it, or not being able to do anything to prevent those people from causing harm, not being able to prevent the harm being done... Aka responsibility over things that happen to other people that doesn't necessarily involve myself. Does that still fall under that umbrella? Because everytime HOCD is being explained/defined, I've only seen it being defined as, "the fear of you causing harm to other people". I know OCD is still OCD regardless of its subtype but I still wanna know.

Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.

Okay so I’ve dealt with harm OCD from the beginning. Started off with harming my kids, going to jail and then harming myself. The harm to myself stuck around for a long time. Then it went away and other themes picked up but it keeps coming back. This is like the third time it’s come back and every single time it comes back it feels worse. It feels like this is the time something is going to happen. Has anyone ever dealt with this? With old themes constantly coming back and feeling more real? Please any advice is greatly appreciated. Thanks

There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.