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mbr
16d ago
  • False Memory OCD

i need help. how do i live if i don’t know for sure if i did something or not? it’s something i would never ever do. but what if i did and i don’t remember ??? i feel sick and guilty it’s been days

good_day🦢
16d ago
I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm dealing with similar issues 💖💖💖 don't give up hope! It can really help to sit with the uncertainty as well. Do you need any kind of emergency numbers or other information?💕
mbr
16d ago
thank you. i’m sorry if i scared you i don’t need any numbers i just feel like a terrible person
good_day🦢
16d ago
@mbr It's okay, I know how difficult this can be 💖
Jeffrey
16d ago
You need to sit with the uncertainty. Saying maybe, maybe not has helped me. I also like to tell the ocd you’re right I am wrong but oh well.
LizardLady95
16d ago
I deal with this. My false memories are very vivid but feel like nightmares. It’s very difficult but I’m surviving it and sometimes that’s all you can ask of yourself.
mbr
16d ago
how do you know that it’s ocd and you didn’t actually do it? like if i knew for certain it was ocd i can do what everyone is saying and live with the uncertainty. but how do i know
LizardLady95
16d ago
@mbr Yea I guess I don’t know for certain. I also have to live with the uncertainty. I suspect it is ocd because I’ve had pretty severe ocd about other things before as well as false memories that proved to be untrue. But this current one that I’m dealing with sometimes feels like literal torture. It’s very hard but I’m surviving it.
mbr
16d ago
@LizardLady95 ugh. i’m sorry ur going through this too. that makes sense, i’m the same. we got this
LizardLady95
16d ago
Yea it’s good to know we are not alone! If you ever wanna talk please reach out. Just knowing there are people like me has made me feel hopeful.
✧ ˙。⋆ Bee ⋆ 。˙✧
16d ago
You have to accept not knowing while continuing to live your life and taking care of yourself. This is hard to do because im sure that you want to know for sure that you didn't do anything before moving on, and that the guilt/shame makes everything feel so real. But these intense feelings aren't proof that something actually happened, theyre just a tool that ocd uses to keep you stuck in a loop of trying to figure thing's out. Don't fall for it, let the feelings and uncertainty sit. You don't have to know for sure right now if you did something, not even for this situation. It isn't too serious for you to ignore and its ok for you to treat it like any other ocd thought. I hope that this helps and here's a couple of videos if you ever need extra tips on getting through false memories and real events ocd ~ × https://youtu.be/fNxlpotyLRs × https://youtu.be/zioi_7c3XeY × https://youtu.be/dbypHEGZbI8 × https://youtu.be/ITiB2v3mZlo