i keep on checking to see if i’m being affectionate enough with my boyfriend and now i feel like i’m forcing it. does anyone with rocd ever feel like this?

Yes, checking always backfires.

Yes

yes, i feel fake everytime i think something nice about my boyfriend or when i say i love you to him. The key - even if it's hard asf - is to do it anyway i think. Not letting those thoughts stop you from doing something nice for him.