- Date posted
- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
Ooof I never realized i had the same issue until i read your post. The feeling honestly makes my heart beat faster and I feel like everything is on pause as im trying to figure it out. But here's my understanding, youre brain has soo many thoughts throughout the day. We actually select the thoughts that we think has an impact or meaning to our life. For people with ocd, we select the thoughts that scares us because we feel that it has a lot of meaning. In reality, everybody would have thoughts of touching someone inappropriately because our brain likes to keep thinking of different scenarios, but they realize that the thought was just random and means nothing. For us, we latch onto it. As you can see, what started it all was the thought of "it doesnt matter if part of your hand touched her chest." You responded with being scared. Next time when that thought appears or a similar one, dont respond to it but also not resist it. This is actually training your mind so you wont be able to ignore the thoughts the first time you try it. When you said "I might actaully molest someone" is another thought that invokes fear. You apply what i said again to this thought. Dont respond or ruminate over it but also dont resist having this thought because this thought is common.
- Date posted
- 3y
Thanks. Its just that i dont know whether or not i performed a checking compulsion because my ocd is sneaky. I started applying makeup more gently after that thought and after ruminating i started applying makeup in the same aggressive force like before but on her forehead with checking compulsion thoughts. Now either my brain knew applying makeup on her forehead wouldnt touch chest so chdcking compulsion safe or the compulsion is in my head and i want to ruminate on it but i have better things to do. Do you also get ocd about ocd. Very annoying
- Date posted
- 3y
@Lucywilefire Yes i for sure get ocd about ocd. Its happens a lot. If you are confused if about whether it was a complusion or not, thats your ocd kicking in. Honestly the subject of your obsessions isnt as important as we think they are when we are trying to manage our ocd. So just treat that event that you desperately trying to figure out like any other ocd episode. What you did could be a compulsion or it could not be, its okay to not be certain about it. That may be hard to be okay but by having this type of mentality, these type of thoughts wont bother you anymore. Here's the thing, the more you respond to your ocd thoguhts the more annoying it becomes 😑.
- Date posted
- 3y
@kevint True. Thank you.
- Date posted
- 3y
We are with you. Try to meditate when that urge comes! Not mindfulness meditation!
Related posts
- Date posted
- 22w
Guys I feel a bit bothered. I fear I liked a thought bc my sister was showing me this video about a robbery and right before she was going to show me I was thinking "no... tsk this is not what I want to see. Dont think of anything." But i had to watch bc my sister was already playing the video. I tried to not pay as much attention. I hate watching videos that have stuff related to harm bc ocd loves to latch on. I got so many thoughts. But when I saw the person pull out a weapon and the cashier jump extremely high, I felt like laughing??? But not bc of what was going on but bc "why did he jump like that? It was so high! You know what? I would've jumped liked this too. That's scary!" And then I felt angry for the cashier bc why do evil people commit such things? How the heck? But ocd says i laughed bc I felt a sense of superiority and liked seeing people scared and want to feel a distorted sense of power. Like.. no? I knew I felt like laughing bc I didn't expect him to jump so high and I wanted to point it out but decided not to bc the video is serious, and it's not a movie. But I feel kinda guilty like why tf did I feel like laughing. I didn't even smile or actually laugh irl but it's bothering me. Then my sister showed me some other video and explained a specific weapon and I kept getting thoughts like "ohhh i want that! I wanna scare people too! I want to test the thoughts to double check if i actually like them" And it gave me an image of me doing something crazy like robbing a store as well! AND IT FELT REAL! I WASNT EVEN WANTING TO THINK THIS! Im worried this means its real or that i enjoyed the thought and fantasized, but at the same time ik im not actually interested nor do I have plans but what if I WANTED to for those few seconds?! Bc why did it FEEL like I enjoyed it??? I know I wouldn't, i dont have plans to nor do i want to think about making plans and I'm genuinely not interested but WHAT IF??? Did i enjoy this thought?! It felt like I wanted to bc I didn't immediately reject it like usual and for some reason felt "happy" (i didnt smile or anything but it FELT like i was happy???) Literally right after the thought came i was thinking to myself "OMG is that true?" And couldn't focus on anything else! How do I know I didnt genuinely enjoy and dont have some weird sense of power??? It's been bothering me so much, this happened a couple hours ago and I managed to fall asleep in the middle of my compulsion of mentally reviewing how I reacted to my thoughts.
- Date posted
- 21w
Worried about situation that happened with nephew new memory or not idk I'm scared Worried about situation that happened with nephew I'm so scared when I was holding my nephew I thought " I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him" ( not the exact words don't want to be extremely graphic) I began to bump him like how people bump babies on their hips he was on my stomach cuz that's how he was handed to me. Now I fear I remember also thinking if his diaper would stimulate his private part or something like that IDK LIKE I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER THINKING THAT BUT ALSO DON'T??? LIKE O FEEL LIKE maybe I thought this at a different time for whatever weird reason but then I'm scared that it makes sense it would happen when I held him. Does it change the situation?????I feel extremely sick because I don't know why I would think that or if it was my brain or me. Idk if it was or wasn't cuz I felt his diaper against me? Was I curious if it would? It feels like I was curious but wth why???Was it just something weird I thought? Am I actually a monster? I had been having disturbing thoughts I'm pretty sure that were related to my POCD in general for a while before that. Ik my nephew didn't get hurt but I'm so scared why would I do something like that I feel so sick and disgusted. I know away from that situation I have no sexual interest or attraction towards him I'm just so freaked out and disgusted. I don't wanna be a bad person and I don't want my worst fear to be true.
- Date posted
- 12w
I feel like I did something bad now because I went to put the blanket on my brother and my hand was close to his back I had a thought before like “it’s time to touch him” and I stood up and he was on a call but he was sleeping so now I’m like why did I stood up? Was it to take the iPad or what exactly? I feel like a child molester I don’t remember touching his area or butt because I didn’t but I had my hand near his back I asked my brother if I did anything he said no I asked if I did anything when I put the blanket over him he said he was sleeping so that doesn’t reassure me So I almost acted on it?
Be a part of the largest OCD Community
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond