Drew777Hi. Was thinking about you yesterday. Praying everything is okay with you. My therapist messaged me and apologized for the way her post sounded about the weekend. She said she really wanted to work with me and help me. So tomorrow I will have my first ERP session with her. I did go back and read where the therapists are here to help us with the ERP's and be there anytime we need them. BTW, we are in Orting, WA now. Got here at 6:30 last night. Had a rough night sleeping. The bed is so soft, so my lower back is bothering me. And yes, I'm still anxious about tomorrow. When I read on here where some people wonder if they will ever get well, and then I remember my husband telling me that some Dr's and people in the medical field told him maybe he should put me in a home. That was when this started three years ago. I don't know, maybe he should have. It didn't help going through the covid thing either, and still going through it. And I don't really fear it, but a lot of stuff about the end of the world. I guess I fear it a little, because I would like to be healthy when it comes. I know that probably doesn't make any sense. I hope this posts for everyone to see. I could use lots of fist pumps for strength and prayers 🙏

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Hey God is in Control! I'm so sorry for my late reply! After work yesterday I fell asleep and then my dad called and we talked for an hour, and then the rest of the day just got away from me. I was thinking about you yesterday too though friend! I'm glad to know that you made it to Orting, Washington though and that you and your husband are safe. :) I'm so glad that your therapist apologized to you for being rude, and that she's looking forward to starting therapy with you! I hope and pray that your first ERP session will go well today and that it'll be a great next step toward better days for you and your husband! Please let me know how your appointment goes today, I'd love to continue to be here for as your friend to give you support. :) I actually just got the courage to book a free call and make an ERP therapy appointment day before yesterday, I made a follow up appointment with this nice receptionist lady I talked to to determine which therapist I'll get and ask some more questions about it. But yeah, while soft beds are kind of nice, they don't provide much support for the back, I can relate to needing a more firm bed. I'm sorry that you're feeling anxious about your appointment today, but I understand the feeling, I really do. It feels like OCD is always throwing something at us, so it can get really stressful. I hope and pray you won't have to go to a home, but just the fact that you've made it this far and hade been fighting for this long without having to go into a home tells me that you're strong and that you can make it through this! Remember, you are stronger than you think, and you may not always win every battle in OCD, but you can walk with confidence knowing that you are winning in the war against OCD. But yeah, all of this stuff with covid hasn't helped with anything, and I think it's natural to fear about it, I fear about all of it to. In fact my family and I have a lot of similar fears about the end of the world too, so I really know what you mean, so I really do understand and it does make sense friend. :) I'm praying for your continual strength friend! And remember, you got this! *fist pump* 😊