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Hey God is in Control! I'm so sorry for my late reply! After work yesterday I fell asleep and then my dad called and we talked for an hour, and then the rest of the day just got away from me. I was thinking about you yesterday too though friend! I'm glad to know that you made it to Orting, Washington though and that you and your husband are safe. :) I'm so glad that your therapist apologized to you for being rude, and that she's looking forward to starting therapy with you! I hope and pray that your first ERP session will go well today and that it'll be a great next step toward better days for you and your husband! Please let me know how your appointment goes today, I'd love to continue to be here for as your friend to give you support. :) I actually just got the courage to book a free call and make an ERP therapy appointment day before yesterday, I made a follow up appointment with this nice receptionist lady I talked to to determine which therapist I'll get and ask some more questions about it. But yeah, while soft beds are kind of nice, they don't provide much support for the back, I can relate to needing a more firm bed. I'm sorry that you're feeling anxious about your appointment today, but I understand the feeling, I really do. It feels like OCD is always throwing something at us, so it can get really stressful. I hope and pray you won't have to go to a home, but just the fact that you've made it this far and hade been fighting for this long without having to go into a home tells me that you're strong and that you can make it through this! Remember, you are stronger than you think, and you may not always win every battle in OCD, but you can walk with confidence knowing that you are winning in the war against OCD. But yeah, all of this stuff with covid hasn't helped with anything, and I think it's natural to fear about it, I fear about all of it to. In fact my family and I have a lot of similar fears about the end of the world too, so I really know what you mean, so I really do understand and it does make sense friend. :) I'm praying for your continual strength friend! And remember, you got this! *fist pump* š
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- 23w
Lately, my mood shifts so frequently. A couple of minutes ago, I got triggered and decided that instead of doing a compulsion, I'd write in my journal (since I haven't done that in a while). But after writing not even half a page... I'm okay? Well, sorta! š I'm experiencing a resurgence in old obsessions, which is disappointing. A couple of weeks back, I was doing a lot better, but now it's just one thing after another. Really wish therapy was more affordable. I'm already seeing my psychiatrist, but she wants me to see a specialist as well. When I think about living with this for the rest of my life, I can get a little emotional. I know it'll get easier to manage as time passes, and it might not even affect me in the future, but right now...? It's a lot of work I'll need to do to overcome this. I'm willing to do it, but I get discouraged at times... But that's enough of my little vent! I hope anyone who reads this is doing okay. Hang in there š¤
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I know I keep talking about this and I swear Iām not trying to be annoying but over the weekend I had gotten some new Clorox wipes because I was running low on some at home. I noticed when I came home I still had 2 half full containers left. When I got home everything was fine until I accidentally knocked my setting spray off my bathroom counter. Now mind you I had 2 warts on my foot about 4 months ago and my ocd makes it worse by making me believe the virus is still on the floor. Immediately when it dropped, I cleaned it with a Clorox wipe. This is where it went down hill and my brain started to spiral. After disinfecting my setting spray, I started second guessing if the Clorox I used on it was from the same container I used for the shower floor. I usually wear gloves before getting a Clorox wipe and sometimes I donāt. I was trying to do āERPā and instead of washing my hands 3x⦠I just washed it for about 5 seconds . I then put my lipliner and gloss on and now I feel like I contaminated my lipliner. I threw my lipliner in my makeup bag and my makeup bag has a blush brush , hilighter brush and some other makeup stuff. I just wanna throw that whole bag out now. Itās exhausting and this might seem dramatic but I couldnāt get out of bed because all I could think about was everything being contaminated in my bathroom. I leave for Florida in 3 days and Iām freaking out because everything isnāt going how I want it to. Iām just exhausted. I just bought some new Clorox wipes from Kroger and one of the Clorox dropped on the floor and now I think thatās contaminated and now Iām confused which one fell on the floor and which one didnāt. They were next to eachother and I forgot that fast. šā¹ļø Before going to Kroger I felt like god was talking to me or my intuition and telling me donāt get another one. So now my minds making me feel like it dropped on the floor on purpose. Idk know if itās god talking to me or my ocd. I was sleeping all day because I donāt wanna get up and go in my bathroom and I donāt even wanna put my makeup on because I donāt wanna take a chance of getting a wart on my face. I never did a deep clean after my wart but I have used so much Clorox in the bathroom to just to dinsifect. Iām still nervous to even do a deep clean because I feel like Iām going to pick up the virus or bacteria. Also if thereās any Christianās reading this I would appreciate just a prayer bc Iām tired and exhausted which I know seems funny from being in my bed all day. But mentally Iām exhausted. I donāt even wanna go to Florida anymore. I know the only way to get a wart is to get it from skin to skin contact. Oh! I almost forgot I had a dentist appt today and this girl was shadowing my dentist and she greeted me and shook my hand. It happned so fast. I didnāt go home right away and wash my hands and Iām freaking out about that too. Iām just overwhelmed . š I know this was long and I appreciate you reading.
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- 10w
Hello everyone. Good morning to you all. This week has been tough for me. I've had a hard time keeping my head up. Every day, I wake up at 5 or so with intense feelings of dread. Shaking, racing thoughts, gagging, struggling to focus and get through work, intense feeling of panic, face flushing, wired but tired. I've been really going through it. And this is extra painful because: 1. I am doing better than I've done in a while. I've made plans and kept to them. 2. I've gotten great news this week about a potential job opportunity. It's a long-term plan, but I'm looking forward to the future like I haven't in months. (My OCD has mainly centered around work uncertainty) 3. My attitude is great. I'm not despairing. I know the morning anxiety is caused morning cortisol. I know my body may just be sensitized. I'm not actually panicking. I'm approaching the doom and gloom thoughts as I believe I should most of the time. So, what's going on? Here's my encouragement to you. This kind of anxiety is a lie. It has no bearing on reality. What I mean is when I wake up shaking, there is no actual danger. My fight or flight response is activating when there is nothing to fight and nothing to fly from. Why? Because my body is sensitized. I spent months waking up every day in a panic, giving in to intrusive thoughts, struggling with compulsions. I don't blame myself for this. It all happened very suddenly and I had no idea what was going on. Once I did, I started fighting it. But damage has been done. And damage takes time to heal. Every time I panicked, I reenforced that fight or flight response. I told my body it was right to panic. And so, now, it is sensitized. It responds with an unusual and inappropriate amount of panic to everything, especially mornings. What I try to remember, and encourage you to remember as well, is this: It takes time to heal. It is very easy for me to start to panic or despair. After all, I feel like I'm doing everything right. Obviously, there are things I can improve on, but I'm getting better. I'm starting to eat better. I'm exercising more. I'm floating through the anxiety. I'm cutting out compulsions. My job prospects are looking up. My relationship with my spouse and family is great. So why? Why? Why? Stop. Don't panic. Remember. You can do absolutely everything right. Anxiety can still come. That's what I mean when is said anxiety is a lie. It is. It's lying to you. You're just sensitized. Remember that it takes time to heal. It doesn't happen overnight. Don't let anxiety control your actions. Don't let it cause you stress and keep you in that cycle. Don't freak out when your heart races or you feel a surge of energy and you want to do anything to escape. Sit in that anxiety and let it pass by as it wishes. If you keep this up, it will get better. You'll become less sensitized. You'll have less anxiety. And when you do have it, it will bother you less, and less, and less. It just takes time. The biggest breakthroughs are often proceeded by the greatest struggles. Don't stop doing the right thing just because it doesn't "feel" good. Feelings are liers. Do what you're supposed to do despite the feelings. Keep up the good work. You're closer to success than you think. Go do something fun today. I'm going to go to the mall and I'm going to live in the present moment, whether anxiety is there or not. Thank you for reading. I am praying for you all.
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