7710 ❤️
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bea238bea238
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heyy I also struggle with rocd and I'm looking for people that I can relate to and talk to about this
bea238bea238
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I've had rocd for maybe over a year now
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@bea238 How are you towards your partner!?
SteinStein
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Fellow ROCD struggler here.
bea238bea238
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@Mandy7710 Hi I know it's been a week since u posted but I forgot about this. Even though I sometimes feel so upset and anxious I dont let that stop me from expressing affection to my partner. I still get doubts on my feelings and if we are right for eachother. I've had this for over a year now and I'm not anxious about the thoughts anymore. I recently just got a therapist. I just want to feel happy again and be able to not self sabotage myself. I'm struggle to concentrate and I'm behing on my studies
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@bea238 It difficult to even show affection….
bea238bea238
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@Mandy7710 how long have you had rocd?
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@bea238 In the beginning of ROCD I was able to show affection a lot now that it’s been way over a year since my gaint trigger I haven’t been able to. We haven’t even been making love that much…. The last time I felt the love feeling was weeks ago… I asked him for a hug yesterday and I was able to show a little affection.
Lana0603Lana0603
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It's the same in my situation. I wanna give him my whole heart but just can't. And it's like that also for 10 years now. We're supposed to get married but I don't know what to do because in the end I really DO love him so much and I think that he deserves to be happy even if it's not with me because I'm losing faith that it's gonna get better. And now I struggle with that doubt to stay or to leave and it's killing me.
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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It hurts Bc it really feels as though the ROCD is gone.. I know I don’t wanna break up Bc I will miss him and wannabe with him. I feel love randomly. But now I can’t touch him like I use to… which is making things harder Bc I use to love touching him… I obsessed about alot of things…. My friend said I am self sabotaging my relationship
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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I know I love my partner too but due to all the obsessing it’s hard Bc I tested my feeling non stop…
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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It doesn’t help when My partner and I have been beyond stressed out lately and we’ve been arguing a little bit here and there. I know I don’t wanna break up. But how can I stay when my feelings truly feel like they are gone…. ☹️ I am gonna do a free call with a therapist on here tomorrow.
Lana0603Lana0603
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Please let me know how that went. I am from Croatia and wasn't able to get to therapy but maybe now I will try again cause they're saying its possible now. Please can you share with me how is it going. It's hard to talk to some friend or close person since no one around me can understand what I'm going thru...❤
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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Once I get it set up I will get you keep you updated. I know when I have a clear mind I know I don’t wanna feel like this.
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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@Mandy7710 If you ever wanna talk I’m here ! You are not alone!
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@LoverGirl Please… I don’t know what to do. I know I don’t wanna break up but that’s all I’ve been obsessing about. I really feel nothing for him… this has never happened before and I don’t wanna be like this… I want my happiness back…. I’m feel like I am in denial about even if I have ROCD or if I love him… I feel like I don’t even have a relationship… I can’t be loveable to him to him like I use to… ☹️ I miss being loveable towards him… it truly feels like I don’t wanna be with him… Il
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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@Mandy7710 Let me know if you wanna exchange Instagrams so we can talk! I know how you feel
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@LoverGirl Sailormandy7710
Lana0603Lana0603
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Thank you. Me too, but I don't know anymore whats the limit to keeping up with everything. Let me know please. ❤
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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Yes I would also like to know! I also struggle with rocd !
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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Does it even feel like ROCD anymore!? I’ve been going thru this for so long I am starting to believe I’m in denial…
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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Iv been dealing with this for 4 months! And it’s so hard! You?
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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@LoverGirl For too long. It doesn’t even feel like ROCD anymore. I know deep down I love my partner alot. But I obsessed about loving him so much that I don’t believe it. It’s like 11 years never happened… 😖😖 I want to love him but for love to be a choice it’s difficult when you have no feelings whatsoever after being so upset for over 1 year
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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@Mandy7710 I am so sorry. Are you in therapy? I know exactly how it feels to know that you love your partner but can’t feel it.
Lana0603Lana0603
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I absolutely understand you. Like I'm reading my thoughts and I can't believe someone is going through the same thing because as you say I got obsessed over it through the years and sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy but also I know deep inside that I'm not but just around him I shut down and have my walls around me and act like I don't care. Wtf??
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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I just want my feelings back… 😞 I really do.. When I think about before I cry Bc I want to be that way with him and him alone again. I know there are some things in our relationship we need to work on but I don’t want breaking up to be a option… ☹️ I’ve seen couples survive thru worse than this…. Why can’t my relationship survive. It feels like that. I have a bunch of walls up guarding myself.
Lana0603Lana0603
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@Mandy7710 Me too...and what you said about constantly reevaluating little things and testing mine and his feelings. Its so exhausting...
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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How can love be a choice when you feel like I do!?! I want to love him so badly… A few days ago I got sad when he didn’t kiss me and over a week ago I asked when we will get married…. I thought he didn’t and that he would break up with me. I cried. He said we aren’t gonna break up. What the heck why am I like this….
7710 ❤️7710 ❤️
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Did I get severely numb!?!?
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