cozymushroom
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cozymushroomcozymushroom
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And I don’t have anxiety either. And I feel annoyed by him constantly. I did not feel like this at the beginning
Mixed Chick-Mental HealthMixed Chick-...
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Aw girl :( I’m so sorry, I felt annoyed by everyone I was with ALL THE TIME (not in the beginning) to the point where I just couldn’t be with them and ended up ruining our relationships bc of it, but I know now it was all bc of my condition and my hyper-focusing on things..we’re here for you.
eridindaneridindan
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hey! i understand how this stage feels, my ocd latched onto how my girlfriend looks and i don’t even get anxiety when it tells me i should leave her over small things i don’t even really care about and things i never found unattractive- needless to say it may not feel like OCD anymore but that’s just part of healin, that thought usually keeps me calm
LoverGirlLoverGirl
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I feel you. It’s so hard but you have to keep trying ! Don’t let ocd win
MEnOCDMEnOCD
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I feel this so hard. Like anything they do that upsets me or makes me uncomfortable I feel like it's the end of the relationship. Even though it makes me cry and I don't know.
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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It doesn’t even make me cry anymore. Like I can’t pull an emotion out of myself. And I keep feeling like I have a crush on this coworker but I really don’t want to but my brains telling me I like it. So I’m so lost
PotatoChip21PotatoChip21
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@cozycat I can relate to this. Do not let your brain convince you of that. I fell for it too. The constant rumination and guilt basically convinced me I had a crush on this other person. It’s all rooted in the constant obsessing, it’s not real. And even if you were to end your relationship, ROCD follows if it’s not healed properly so it would just wind up being there in the next relationship. Keep fighting you will conquer this !
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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@PotatoChip21 I was just sitting here and I had a thought and I was like that’s not true and then it felt like I thought “no you know it’s true”
PotatoChip21PotatoChip21
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@cozycat Oh trust me I do the same thing. My logical realistic brain always fights my OCD brain. I started to call my OCD brain by a name and whenever thoughts like that come up I tell her she’s wrong and I’m confident I know what I want, just trying to be positive about the situation
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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@PotatoChip21 Even if it makes you not feel confident about what you want. Like at this point I feel like I don’t even want to be here it’s so weird
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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@cozycat And like it feels so real. Like I feel like I don’t want to be around him and like I don’t even like him. And I’m pretty convinced it’s true and not ocd so that’s been stressing me out. Because I want to believe it’s ocd I want it to be ocd but it simply doesn’t feel like it anymore
mc779!mc779!
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@cozycat I get what you’re saying. What makes you want to stay in the relationship?
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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@Romans510 Because I loved him so much before all of this started. And he honestly is my whole world. And I love him so much. I just don’t want to feel this way and I feel like I’m lying
mc779!mc779!
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@cozycat I completely relate. Try to stick with your values, OCD really freaking sucks but it doesn’t have to define you. I understand that feeling of feeling like a liar but love is mostly a choice ❤️ hang in there!
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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@Romans510 Even when it feels like I have no idea what my values are anymore. I’m so lost
Mixed Chick-Mental HealthMixed Chick-...
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It also may help to make a list of reasons why you want too stay with him. I know you love him, but don’t let that be one of the reasons you stay. Sometimes, love is not enough! I recently broke up with someone who I loved very much because they were not treating me right. So, like I said, loving someone doesn’t necessarily equal a good enough reason to stay. Make a list of other reasons you are with him and why u 2 are compatible in your eyes. Every time OCD says u don’t love him, ignore that voice and refer back to your list that clearly shows you why you are CHOOSING to be with him. Like many have said before- maintaining a good relationship is a choice. You CAN choose him. :)
cozymushroomcozymushroom
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He treats me well! My ocd just tells me I don’t. There’s no reason for this at all
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