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I’m also suffering with DP/DR, which stirred up many types of OCD. It makes it really hard to know what to think most of the time. It could be a coping mechanism, or it could be that you are a positive person and have hope that you will get through this. DP is designed by our brains to make our trauma/life situation less stressful, but for people like me it just makes me feel worse. For you it might actually be helping you not stress and worry so much about everyday life. I’ve had moments of feeling content and happiness as well, as after all, these feelings come from hormones and chemicals within our body. If you are feeling content and happy, then it doesn’t sound like your emotions are shutting down, you may just be accepting your condition and finding contentment in life, and that is a huge step in the right direction. Our feelings aren’t always black and white, and sometimes we can be happy and depressed or sad at the same time, we can feel a variety of emotions. I would say keep doing what makes you feel happy, and keep staying strong :)
Thank you for the encouragement. It was uplifting to read your message, and this is good insight! I relate to having many types of OCD and not knowing what to think. Having both OCD and DP/DR, it’s a revolving door of symptoms with a lot of difficult days while some are more manageable. Like you said DP is protective, but it also creates its own trauma. I’m sorry for the hardships you’re having. I hope you’re getting good support, and keep believing in your strength & goodness everyday. Also, have you tried EMDR therapy for DP/DR?
EMDR is my next course of action, I’m looking for a new facility that conducts this treatment. I’ve also been recommended TMS therapy for this and will be trying that if possible. You’re absolutely right about the revolving door of symptoms! The DP caused my ocd to worsen drastically, and there was a lot of trauma from the DP, especially before I had a name for it or knew what was happening, also being misdiagnosed many times by doctors. Keep up hope, and let me know if you know of anything that helps you! For me it’s usually walking outside, feeling the trees I walk by and smelling the flowers, trying to use my senses to ground me a bit and at least remind myself that the world hasn’t changed, just my perception of it has
@EthanScott Hi. I just posted this message on NOCD, and thought y’all might be interested. Here is the post: For anyone who suffers from depersonalization / derealization (DP/DR), how would you feel about starting a support group? I don't know what platform to use, so I am open to suggestions. NOCD is incredibly helpful, and having more support for DP/DR is something I think we could benefit from. This disorder isn't well researched - many people aren't properly diagnosed - and those of us who suffer from it aren't resourced enough to cope.
I struggle a lot with wondering it its my OCD finally letting me breathe and be happy or if im just suppressing my emotions and numbing myself out. But truth be told you just have to tell yourself “maybe im truly happy. Maybe its an underlying issue and maybe not? And both are irrelevant” and i also add to that “because regardless of the WHY. Im happy for the first time in a while so lets GO WITH IT”. Live my life anyways!
I’m so confused right now. I feel really calm about my intrusive thoughts and I feel calm overall. I can still get moments of feeling uneasy but overall I’m calmer. Yesterday was really difficult. Does that mean I don’t have OCD? I just don’t get this. Even today I was scared with the thought of what If I’m lying about my intrusive thoughts and my experience with OCD and I’m really just a crazy person.....and then later today when I felt calmer I was like omg what if I really don’t have OCD and I really I’m just making it up. I feel so calm right now. I’m kind of guessing maybe because I talked to my mom about my some intrusive thoughts have and have had in the past and I was worried about telling her but she understood and so I feel a weight lifted off my shoulders. Is it possible to suddenly feel ok?
It’s so weird how OCD just comes about with no explanation, out of nowhere. My issue has been feelings. I have moments of hyper focusing on feelings, trying to figure them out, and it’s exhausting. Logically, I know that what I’m going through with the things happening in my life (relationship ending that was abusive, my father just getting diagnosed with dementia, etc) would make anyone feel the way I do. But I keep trying to fight my feelings. “Normally, old me” would embrace them and let them be. Ever since my OCD returned, I can’t help but fixate on them and stress even more. It’s almost like my emotions and the way we are as humans in my mind has become even more of a problem than the problems themselves. Can anyone relate? I am doing my best with ERP. I definitely helps. But I’m still waking up not feeling like myself and it hurts.
Why is OCD so confusing? My obsessions upset me so much because the truth about them is quite concerning and depressing to me. So how is treating OCD going to help me when it feels like a REAL problem to me. What if I am never able to accept the uncertainty of my issues. It doesn’t even feel like an OCD problem to me…it feels like a reality problem. I’m not happy with reality and the truths about existence, so of course it’s going to make me sad. I guess it’s just my own mind though. My concerns and thoughts are REAL. If I could go back to not thinking about these certain things, my whole perception on life, myself, reality as a whole would be fine. I feel like people tell me it’s OCD but I don’t agree..yet I don’t actually know what the real problem is. What if I can’t accept reality? It’s such a terrifying feeling to have. I feel so crazy.
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