I kept getting intrusive thoughts about my niece which I get even when I don’t have alcohol because unfortunately OCD attacks her a lot and other family members too.
No, intrusive thoughts are never true. But they are always scary. I'm so sorry you feel like you're a monster. I feel like one too. I know we're not though. Thats what people keep telling me and I have to believe them because right now my brain just doesn't work.