I feel like my therapist just doesn’t understand. He tells me the same thing each time and every time I tell him I’ve tried and it doesn’t work for me so i don’t know what else to do.

Is he an OCD specialist? I went to a general therapist before going to an OCD specialist. The difference was night and day. General therapists aren’t trained to help OCD.

I saw your post on someone elses thread. I have contamination OCD too. To be honest? I stopped going to both the therapist and OCD specialist and did my ERP on my own. Therapy is different for everyone but the #1 thing is you have to be 100% willing to put your whole heart into getting better. When I started therapy I knew I had an issue but I didn’t put my 100% in, and I got worse over time. Once I realized “fuck this im done with OCD” and put ALL of my effort in to fighting it I started seeing major progress.

It might be you don't gel with this therapist but another one might work with you better. Although there is a period where OCD seems worse, because you are exposing yourself to anxious triggers and not doing anything about it, instead of doing compulsions. You have to carry on doing it or you will quickly relapse.

Like I tried to do an exposer and now I’m on the verge of quitting my job because now everything there I feel is dirty all because I didn’t wash after the one thing

I have tried and I’ve sat with it for days

And it never goes away so i don’t know what to do

I take it when I wake up. Or before im about to start my day. No high at all, it doesnt have any THC (which is what gets you high). Read this article: https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/319622.php

I also take a daily probiotic. Which I started doing a few months after CBD. But I noticed it also helped. Theres a link to anxiety disorders and gut bacteria. I take a 25 billion one daily.

He specializes in ocd

It’s just that every time I try it just gets worse. Like even when I did erp I got a little better (six months of erp got me to touch light switches and doorknobs) but it’s like I went through hell for nothing because now I’m 10 times worse. Like at this rate I’d have to do erp for the rest of my life and why would I subject myself to that torture

I’ve been on 5 different medications

Currently not on any and am waiting to she a psychiatrist.

I was on the highest dose of Prozac until it stopped helping. That was the one drug that I found helped a bit

Marijuana only helps when I’m high and when I’m not just makes it worse so I try not to use it. So i don’t know if CBD oil would help me. It’s on my list. I heard shrooms help people a lot. The only thing is weed is legal where I live and shrooms aren’t

Yeah but I don’t forget about it that’s the problem

CBD doesnt have THC so you wont have that high feeling. Theres no “too much” when it comes to CBD. The dosage is different per person. I take 20mg but I know people who take double that. Its worth trying.

Ive been facing my issues for a while now so thats why Im at a point to forget. Try one thing per day. Touch the light switch and sit with the anxiety. Tell your OCD to fuck off while youre sitting there. Remind yourself that you want a normal life and this is how to get back to that.

I just don’t know how to do exposures when they just create more problems. Say I touch something “dirty”. Then if I don’t wash my hands and touch something else that thing is now “dirty” etc... then quickly it becomes me being scared of like 10 things because I didn’t wash and now my whole worlds smaller. I can’t tackle one thing without tackling everything at once

Just sit with the anxiety. It will eventually fade.

Like I understand exposures when it comes to one specific thing because I have done it and it has worked but not when one exposure can cause so much damage. For instance when I was younger I used to be scared of stepping on cracks because of that stupid rhyme and I would make myself step on them but as soon as I did it and realized nothing happened my anxiety would go away but now it always feels like something does happen when I touch something dirty because it does get the other thing dirty and that’s my fear me spreading the dirt and since the dirt is imaginary i don’t know how to make myself believe it’s not there when it feels like it is

Like we have senses for a reason and mine just don’t work right. I actually physically feel like I’m covered in molasses and I can sit with if for a whole day and the feeling never goes away.

The more and more you give in to the OCD the harder it will be. You have to stay strong and fight it. Just say fuck this im done being controlled by a mental illness. One exposure is going to cause “damage” but in reality what is you being “dirty” doing? Youre fine right? Whats so “dirty” about it? We have a control issue, the doubting disease. You know reality vs OCD. Stay in your rational brain.

If youre not on any medications try this, https://pluscbdoil.com/cbd-products/cbd-oil-capsules/pluscbd-oil-capsules/ I take 20 10mg. See what it does for you.

I don’t know and that’s the problem. I don’t know why I’m so scared. I’m not afraid of getting sick. It’s like I don’t know any other way I’ve been living like this for 13 years

Is there a good time in the day to take it. Does it make you feel high at all? Or just relaxed?

try different forms of therapy. I know erp is considered the most effective for ocd but not everyone is the same—personally cbt helped me a lot more. Therapy is different for everyone and if you’ve completely exhausted the erp option, try something else. In fact, doing different therapy first made erp easier and more effective for me later on

reading the rest of your comments, this is the exact experience I had with erp. I also have contamination ocd and I know that sensation where its like you can *feel* all the germs on you all too well. Wishing u luck, I know it’s super frustrating:(