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katr :,)katr :,)
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💗❤️ 🫂
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katr :,)katr :,)
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I’m doing okay so far had some thoughts and I think I was doing it again like reacting to them as “omg i hate this feeling/thought, or like why tf did I just have that though “ how about you how wss your day? :)
katr :,)katr :,)
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It makes me feel so terrible and not innocent tho 😭 when ik if I hadn’t had ocd I would’ve not cared abt it anyway 💀 I think. 😭 but omg that’s good! I loveee tacossss I’m glad that they tasted good 😆
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Thank you 🥰🤧🥺
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@BlueMountain I hope you’re having a good day as well 🥺
katr :,)katr :,)
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It was okay had some troubling thoughts today :(, and idk if it’s an urge or not but it’s just a feeling in my hands like if I want to m*lest a child :/ I’ve been feeling this for awhile and I’m scared of what it means.. it didn’t even come up like obviously it was just a thought was liek slowly coming up and now it’s bothering me. Moslty bc I keep replaying the memory of my abuser molesting me and me wondering if I’m gonna do the same or if it will come to that point ..
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Thanks 🥺✨
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@BlueMountain Honestly? I keep on thinking abt that 14 year old in my class and it’s convincing me of shit 😭ughhh I hate this like it’s just so troubling but at the same time it’s like my ocd is a big deal but then it’s not yk? But I still worry and think abt like “omg why do I keep looking at him “😭😭 literally reminding me of my crush idk and it feels like I’m attracted to him :( , and I literally know it’s wrong but my brain is literally just convincing me of so much rn I can’t 😭😭 I’m wondering if I didn’t have ocd if I would think like this 🥲 ugh I hate this and I can’t even tell attraction between him and my friend who confessed that he used to have a crush on me aka younger than me too 😭 bc I literally be seeing signs that he lowkey still does and everytime i notice shit like that it makes me feel like I’m starting to like it 💀 which I really don’t but my brain is literally making scenarios 😵💫😵💫
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Can someone please offer words of advice :(
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
Anonymous
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please help or if you can relate
why do i feel like im starting to like the false attraction? i don’t want to liek it and it normal makes me feel disgusting but sometimes i feel like i like it. please help
Imnew@this
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I feel like a monster
(21+ ONLY: TRIGGER WARNING) I honestly feel so overwhelmed by my thoughts—so overwhelmed that I honestly don’t care anymore. I feel like I’m accepting the fact that I’m a monster and have always been a monster. I broke down last night because of these thoughts but I wouldn’t tell anyone if they asked. It wouldn’t make sense to them. This morning, I was watching a body cam video and the person that was arrested was traumadumping about their past SA. I felt like I liked the thoughts and images I got from it. And instead of being disgusted, I let it happen. What does this mean? Does this mean that I’m a monster? Am I a just a monster in disguise?
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