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katr :,)katr :,)
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💗❤️ 🫂
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katr :,)katr :,)
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I’m doing okay so far had some thoughts and I think I was doing it again like reacting to them as “omg i hate this feeling/thought, or like why tf did I just have that though “ how about you how wss your day? :)
katr :,)katr :,)
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It makes me feel so terrible and not innocent tho 😭 when ik if I hadn’t had ocd I would’ve not cared abt it anyway 💀 I think. 😭 but omg that’s good! I loveee tacossss I’m glad that they tasted good 😆
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katr :,)katr :,)
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Thank you 🥰🤧🥺
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@BlueMountain I hope you’re having a good day as well 🥺
katr :,)katr :,)
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It was okay had some troubling thoughts today :(, and idk if it’s an urge or not but it’s just a feeling in my hands like if I want to m*lest a child :/ I’ve been feeling this for awhile and I’m scared of what it means.. it didn’t even come up like obviously it was just a thought was liek slowly coming up and now it’s bothering me. Moslty bc I keep replaying the memory of my abuser molesting me and me wondering if I’m gonna do the same or if it will come to that point ..
katr :,)katr :,)
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Thanks 🥺✨
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@BlueMountain Honestly? I keep on thinking abt that 14 year old in my class and it’s convincing me of shit 😭ughhh I hate this like it’s just so troubling but at the same time it’s like my ocd is a big deal but then it’s not yk? But I still worry and think abt like “omg why do I keep looking at him “😭😭 literally reminding me of my crush idk and it feels like I’m attracted to him :( , and I literally know it’s wrong but my brain is literally just convincing me of so much rn I can’t 😭😭 I’m wondering if I didn’t have ocd if I would think like this 🥲 ugh I hate this and I can’t even tell attraction between him and my friend who confessed that he used to have a crush on me aka younger than me too 😭 bc I literally be seeing signs that he lowkey still does and everytime i notice shit like that it makes me feel like I’m starting to like it 💀 which I really don’t but my brain is literally making scenarios 😵💫😵💫
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