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- OCD Conqueror
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Yes! I have experienced hiv anxiety as well! Also anxiety over pregnancy because I am a female. It is so frustrating and upsetting so I can definitely understand where your coming from. It’s tough but you can and will get through this! What helps me is realizing what I can and can not control. (I can control wether or not I can decide to use a condom, go on birth control, have sex, etc.) I also weigh out what is most important to me. Yes, it is important for me to not get HIV but my relationship with my partner is also important and sex is a large part of being in a relationship (atleast for some people). As a result, I have come to the conclusion that having sex is important for me and even though I am slightly scared of getting HIV I will take the precautions needed in order to have a fruitful relationship with my partner. I hope this helps!
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dude if you constantly obsess about it then you don’t have it people with hiv wouldn’t even think about constantly until they checked themselves up for it
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I used to have it very much but i did once exams and after this i calmed down
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I do something similar, just with herpes instead of aids… We’re not alone lol
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Yes we are not i think i used to had this thought due to a an anxiety disorder which is called health anxiety and not of OCD i am not actually sure
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Yes
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I have same situation I get all worked up even when I use protection I get convinced I’m going to be infected with something It’s been a struggle to work through but need to in order to have a sexual relationships in future
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A few days ago, I posted how proud I am of myself, that I managed to go to the doctor to get a vaccination. Now, two days later, I find myself panicking and ruminating. It was a practice where they also test a lot for HIV and other blood diseases and in my mind, the needle/syringe they used for my vaccination was somehow contaminated with blood from another patient. Maybe by accident but sometimes my mind would make up a scenario where they would do it even on purpose. I was so proud of myself, that I managed to go there on Monday and now I am making up scenarios how I caught HIV by going there - I am feeling guilty because I was „careless“. Any tips for the moment? ❤️
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I suffer since 10 - 15 yrs from specific fears. It was years that my OCD constantly wanted to be checked if I have HIV or not. I had a lot of sex and I thought this is normal. But I ruminated in my backhead about and was testing like 5 - 10 times a year. After the test I felt everytime so relieved. In Corona I was addicted to porn and even I lost control and was watching pretty hard stuff. I was chatting with a girl and we fantasized about really disturbing things. I never wanna meet her and for me was sure it's just kinda onlinestuff. I was in a relationship 3 years now. And I lost fear of HIV. But then came Morality OCD, Real Event (this chat) and after some times POCD. This combination was knocking me out, I felt like the badest person on earth. I did everything wrong and searched for relief and reassurance. It put me to the point of suicidal. I never ever hurting somebody, but my brain was making me a monster. I had to quit the relationship because I just couldn't give her what she deserved. I was in a clinic for 3 months. And we tested medication with ERP (before I took escitalopram for years). Anafranil was working first, then too many side-effects. I tried even without meds, but was so depressed. Now on sertralin for 5 weeks, but only 2 weeks on therapeutic dose 200mg. And wow, now I really feel so confused in the brain. I feel like how big my OCD became. The specific thoughts are not anymore, BUT it sticks on EVERYTHING atm. It's delusional how it feels in the brain. I really hope so deep my brain makes finally a reset and I need to wait it out. I could live with OCD for a long time but the last 1-2 yrs it took absolutely everything. I remark that POCD doesn't stick anymore like before but my brain is now constructing a very bad future because of past mistakes (that I all discussed with family, friends for relief over and over and over again). So it's like my OCD is now Real Event (The sexchat) again. Anyone was on the same point in life?
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- 14w
My theme is suicidal OCD. I’ve been doing ERP since last year November and the overall intensity of my thoughts have not reduced at all. I have these thoughts 24/7 and my life feels like a living hell. Not two minutes goes by throughout the day where I’m not suffering from relentless thoughts. I don’t want to take meds because of the side effects and my insurance is coming to an end so it’d be difficult to ween off them by myself. I’m starting to feel so hopeless because I’ve done the toughest of the toughest exposures and I’m not getting better at all. My life is a living hell and I don’t see my condition with OCD getting better anytime sooner.
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