Each day living is getting difficult even though I have everything to eat.. a house to live in.. books to read.. a family. Yet I have terrible relations and I fear everyone will leave me or a day will come that I will have to leave everyone. A 24 yr old girl who aspires to become a civil servant but today feeling like a failure and burden. Why? Why do I feel so anxious, angry on what people did to me or why my behaviour was not normal like other kids who now have graduated from top IITs, medical colleges or top NLUs and I'm in my bed hiding my face in fear that I'm someone who won't be able to survive. Please help me. Please. I want to build a strong career but I'm already 24 and have severe OCD. No one knows and feels it except for me. People in past have said that you only overthink but my impulsive behaviour.. repeating things again and again.. my obsessions and compulsions have distorted the way a normal individual could think. I dont have money to pay for ERP therepy but I need help. I'll pay off as soon as I get hired. It may take around 2-3 years. So I dont think I'm going to get any support anyhow. I know this platform is good that's why I came here. Please help

You are not Alone! I used to feel everything you re describing. i promise it Will get better!

Thanks I'm glad to be a part of this community. Atleast there are like minded people here who really understand these things. How should I get treated for it? Is there anything to reduce it?

@nayan14 What worked for me was therapy and medication... And i read a really great book that helped a lot to understand our Brain. Its called Brain lock and was recommended by my therapist. You can find it online! I hope it helps.

@Otellomarie Thanks a lot otellomarie. I'll definitely read it. 😃

I just want you to know that I hear you right now. This disorder can be incredibly debilitating and people often don't realize the depths it can take a person especially when they are in the trenches of their symptoms and it makes them question everything about themselves. I want you to know, too, that just because you have a house, a family, other things to be "grateful" for, that doesn't invalidate your struggle at all. You can have those things *and* *still* *need* *help*. That's okay. That doesn't mean anything negative about YOU. This disorder is just really, really debilitating and especially without treatment. Now with that said - NOCD does offer payment plans and does take some insurances. Have you reached out to our care team for a free 15 minute phone call/consultation? They will be able to discuss more with you regarding payment plans, pricing, etc. In the meanwhile, we do have some tools on our app that I'd encourage you to check out if you havent already. The IOCDF along with our website also has great resources. Best of luck in your recovery - you've got this!

Thank you ma'am. I found this community by chance and I'm happy to be a part of it. It is terrible when people avoid you and feel that you are a blot of shame on society worth being boycotted. I am yet to consult as I was occupied with my entrance exam councelling. I'll consult tomorrow. Thanks again ma'am. 😊

Also ma'am I'm from India, and I'm also a student. Can I get discount on therepy if possible?