Can ocd makes you doubt about your true self and values in life and whether you really want these awful things to happen?

Yes

Oh yeah bro I do that multiple time a day

Yes sir absolutely!!!

So here is a novel question. How are we supposed to live a normal life when we have to deal with these thoughts/feelings? I mean I get the ERP thing but that is only supposed to help compulsions. How do you live normally while feeling not sure you really want these things to happen? I’m not trying to be negative, it’s a true question.

I think the goal is to remain uncertain no matter what. Easier said than done!