Oh god! These feelings are so strong. Even when they settle they’re still there. It feels like I want it and I don’t even have the energy to say I don’t anymore. I don’t want them to be true but it seems as if they must be, it seems impossible for me to go back to being happy where I was.

Please someone help me, it’s like the thoughts are making me feel good now I don’t even knoe

Hello Brad, I am so sorry. This urgency this illness causes to follow this thoughts and feelings is pure hell, I hear you! did you ever consider medication? I take 5-htp for 8 weeks now (an amino acid to rise serotonine levels) and became at least able to start working on my view of the thoughts and to finally build the needed acceptance without losing it. SSRI would most likely also work. If you have a doctor ask them.

I’ve been on medication for about 7 weeks now. And it’s reduced the anxiety but that actually makes things harder for me to know what I think or what my OCD wants. Sometimes I can tell the two apart but then on most of the time I just can’t

@BradOCD :( for me anxiety was the first as well that got better. the thoughts are still there, I just can handle them better and do not feel an urge anymore to react in any way. I so hope you get there soon, this feelings and thoughts are so exhausting when they still have all their power :(

@Bimmi It’s the urge to act, with the lack of anxiety. And all the thoughts come with feelings that I just can’t get over. It feels so real now. And I’ve had them so long part of me is scared about what life will be like without them even tho I was very happy without them

@BradOCD I'm 100% with you mate my life is hell most of the time. When you say the thoughts are with you all the time. What kind of thoughts are you having ?