Oh god! These feelings are so strong. Even when they settle they’re still there. It feels like I want it and I don’t even have the energy to say I don’t anymore. I don’t want them to be true but it seems as if they must be, it seems impossible for me to go back to being happy where I was.

I’ve been on medication for about 7 weeks now. And it’s reduced the anxiety but that actually makes things harder for me to know what I think or what my OCD wants. Sometimes I can tell the two apart but then on most of the time I just can’t

@Bimmi It’s the urge to act, with the lack of anxiety. And all the thoughts come with feelings that I just can’t get over. It feels so real now. And I’ve had them so long part of me is scared about what life will be like without them even tho I was very happy without them

@BradOCD I'm 100% with you mate my life is hell most of the time. When you say the thoughts are with you all the time. What kind of thoughts are you having ?

@Ihateocd83 They’re just either sexual or romantic thoughts about guys, how I need to leave my gf, I would be happier if I was gay, I’ve known I was gay all along, you missed the signs. And even when I enjoy sex with my partner, it almost makes the OCD stronger because it goes against what it wants me to do.