No one gets back to me on here anymore..... makes me think I'm an acception from everyone else. I feel lost 😞

Sexual Orientation OCD

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

I've had this on and off for 17 years I'm 38 now never had one gay thought before the age of 22. It's been bad like this for a year now everyday is rubbish to be honest. How are you doing now and how do you cope with the thoughts?

Incognito

Date posted: 4y

What’s up bro

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

My minds just on at me all the time I want to be with a man and I even say I want a husband and shit it just doesn't make sense it feels like something has died for me with women I just feel numb. I used to be girl crazy and now I even question that. Wtf has happened to me 😔

Incognito

Date posted: 4y

“You used to” I know the feeling man, I know it seems dark and scary but there is hope. It’s ocd big man, there are times where I’ve had thoughts like that too. You get so consumed and and get so confused that your brain is just looking for something to hold on to. As scary as it may seem even if you tell yourself you want a husband and want to be with a guy it doesn’t mean it’s true. Even if it feels scincere, you’d be surprised at what the mind can do. Just embrace that thought, I know it’s scary but just know that it is not you

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

@kperalta Thanks for your help. It just makes me feel so depressed and angry. It's funny tho the other night I went out and got drunk and I felt like my old self like I was chatting to girls again and had no thoughts from what I can remember......why is that ?

Incognito

Date posted: 4y

Bro tell me about it, I was playing soccer in spain and now I’m leaving cause it got so bad. You should talk to people when you feel that way even about random stuff even if you don’t feel like it. I feel hopeless and depressed and anxious but when I talked to some roommates or house keeper about random crap it’s way better. When your on alcohol you just stop caring and just start doing you don’t think as much

Incognito

Date posted: 4y

Last night and today was one of the worst I’ve ever had because it really seemed like I didn’t have OCD. I was so convinced I woke up vomiting pure stomach acid. Sometimes I don’t cope I just really deal with it. However, one thing that has helped me in the past was watching an anime or cartoon Like Tom and jerry cause it’s hilarious and it has nothing to do with humans at all

Incognito

Date posted: 4y

Falling asleep to a YouTube video or music also helped cause it’s like white noise and you can listen to that instead of your thoughts. It puts you somewhere else

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

I fear that I might just be gay and I just don't know how to handle it. Why didn't I have anything when I was younger why at the age of 22 all them years ago I can even remember the thought I had

Incognito

Date posted: 4y

Did anything trigger it? Like a thought or someone joking around wiht you or anything?

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

I just don't know if my thoughts are genuine or fake like I've created this in my head. My attraction for women is up and down

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

What when I was 22 ?....

Ihateocd83

Date posted: 4y

I think I just had a random thought about my friend

Incognito

Date posted: 4y

If you’ve had attraction before I woudl say it’s definitely just OCD that’s what it sounds like

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