Ihateocd83
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Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I've had this on and off for 17 years I'm 38 now never had one gay thought before the age of 22. It's been bad like this for a year now everyday is rubbish to be honest. How are you doing now and how do you cope with the thoughts?
Incognito Incognito
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Whatās up bro
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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My minds just on at me all the time I want to be with a man and I even say I want a husband and shit it just doesn't make sense it feels like something has died for me with women I just feel numb. I used to be girl crazy and now I even question that. Wtf has happened to me š
Incognito Incognito
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āYou used toā I know the feeling man, I know it seems dark and scary but there is hope. Itās ocd big man, there are times where Iāve had thoughts like that too. You get so consumed and and get so confused that your brain is just looking for something to hold on to. As scary as it may seem even if you tell yourself you want a husband and want to be with a guy it doesnāt mean itās true. Even if it feels scincere, youād be surprised at what the mind can do. Just embrace that thought, I know itās scary but just know that it is not you
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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@kperalta Thanks for your help. It just makes me feel so depressed and angry. It's funny tho the other night I went out and got drunk and I felt like my old self like I was chatting to girls again and had no thoughts from what I can remember......why is that ?
Incognito Incognito
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Bro tell me about it, I was playing soccer in spain and now Iām leaving cause it got so bad. You should talk to people when you feel that way even about random stuff even if you donāt feel like it. I feel hopeless and depressed and anxious but when I talked to some roommates or house keeper about random crap itās way better. When your on alcohol you just stop caring and just start doing you donāt think as much
Incognito Incognito
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Last night and today was one of the worst Iāve ever had because it really seemed like I didnāt have OCD. I was so convinced I woke up vomiting pure stomach acid. Sometimes I donāt cope I just really deal with it. However, one thing that has helped me in the past was watching an anime or cartoon Like Tom and jerry cause itās hilarious and it has nothing to do with humans at all
Incognito Incognito
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Falling asleep to a YouTube video or music also helped cause itās like white noise and you can listen to that instead of your thoughts. It puts you somewhere else
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I fear that I might just be gay and I just don't know how to handle it. Why didn't I have anything when I was younger why at the age of 22 all them years ago I can even remember the thought I had
Incognito Incognito
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Did anything trigger it? Like a thought or someone joking around wiht you or anything?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I just don't know if my thoughts are genuine or fake like I've created this in my head. My attraction for women is up and down
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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What when I was 22 ?....
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
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I think I just had a random thought about my friend
Incognito Incognito
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If youāve had attraction before I woudl say itās definitely just OCD thatās what it sounds like
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