I'm wondering if I should even be doing this because I have had bad anxiety all day today and since I got home from vacation last night. I had anxiety while on vacation also, but not as bad as now. I don't want the motel to be a trigger for my OCD'S. I'm not sure what I should be doing.

I just feel the motel is triggering my anxiety. With me being sick, and the illness of my husband, plus the covid, the lobby and my bedroom have gone through a lot. My husband has been sleeping in his recliner ever since he found out he had sleep apnea, then the prostate cancer. He had it surgically removed, they got all the cancer. Then he had pain on his testes where there were masses. He had the right mass removed and something to do with the nerves to that testicle. So, while he was recuperating from that, he caught covid and spent 5 days in the hospital due to low oxygen. While he was in the hospital, I and my two kids up here went and got tested. My son and I tested positive while my daughter tested negative. We were quarantined for 14 days and shut the motel down for three weeks. We let the people who already had reservations keep them, but we didn't take any more reservations until the three weeks were up. When Rick was discharged, he came home on oxygen. He still is on oxygen and still in his recliner. I've been sleeping in my recliner since I had an endoscopy that showed burning of my esophagus and stomach from gastric bypass surgery I'd had. And my throat burned. Also, my throat was really narrow and they dilated it, and wanted me to sleep in my recliner so that the liquid pepcid like stuff would stay on my throat and esophagus. They call what I had Gerd. I still have it. Anyway, my bed is full of clothes. Most of them Rick's. But now, I have a big suitcase on the bed, clothes still in it. Rick has a smaller suitcase with clothes still in it. And I have a Sleep Study coming up that I have to do at home because of my insurance.

@God is in Control Oh, I see, at first I thought you meant that you were staying at a motel, but I think I see now that you're saying that you and your husband own a motel, I didn't realize that at first. I can't believe how much you and your husband and your kids have had to deal with, especially in such a short amount of time. :( all of the sickness, pain, and heartache that comes with all of that... but I think considering everything you've been through, I just want you to know that I think you and your family are really strong for continuing to push forward through all of this God is in Control! All of you are inspiring to me! And like I said, there is absolutely nothing wrong with admitting that you're scared, stressed, sad, and in pain. And there is nothing wrong with admitting when you need help because that's exactly why this community is here! That's exactly why I'm here, I want to encourage others, I want to encourage you my friend! Your faith in God has brought you this far, and God will continue to be with you every step of the way through these trials and struggles that you're facing, He will see you through this, so don't lose hope my friend! In Psalms chapter 34: verses 18-20 it says this: The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed. The righteous person faces many troubles, but the Lord comes to the rescue each time. For the Lord protects the bones of the righteous; not one of them is broken! Psalms 34:18‭-‬20 NLT I hope those Bible verses bring you some encouragement today my friend! When we have God by our side we can face anything that the enemy throws our way, it may not be easy, and we may still be afraid along the way, but God will be with us, and that's the most important part to remember! Our God is the same God today that He was yesterday and the same God that He will always be! Have courage in your heart today my friend, for God loves you SO unconditionally and SO dearly, and He will never leave you nor forsake you! Just remember that God is your best friend and He wants to hear about your prayers and your struggles and your pain and your fears, God listens to all that we have to share with Him and He works in our lives to help us with all of those different things we face whether it be cancer, sleep apnea, covid, surgery or anxiety, God is going to help you with all of those things and so much more! I pray that you will have peace and rest in your heart today my friend! God bless God is in Control! I hope you have a wonderful day! 😀

@Drew777 Not so good today. But been saying lots of prayers. Seeing my psychiatrist in half an hour. Anxiety won't leave me alone, and my lower back is hurting. Took two Tylenol and thought I was gonna puke and pass out. Thank you for being here.

@God is in Control You're welcome friend, I'm sorry that today hasn't been very good for you... I hope the Tylenol will start working and that you will start to feel better soon though. I'm glad that you're staying in prayer, that's the best thing you can do right now is stay in prayer to God. How did your meeting with your psychiatrist go earlier?

Hmm... so, is he going to get in contact with your therapist to negotiate how he thinks you should be taking your medication?

@Drew777 I would like to have your email address unless you don't want to give an old lady your email. Just thought I'd like to be able to have you as a friend when all is said and done here. There are a couple of other people's email I would like to have as well. Just can't remember your names.

@God is in Control Sorry for the late reply, I had a bit of a busy weekend. But yeah that's fine, you can have my email address. We're friends regardless of age or whatever, it doesn't bother me. :) Drew777's email address: theglitchguy957@yahoo.com I understand what you mean about not having the specific worries everyday though, maybe your therapist/and or psychiatrist aren't properly understanding your OCD and the way it affects you. My worries have been happening a lot less frequently than normal, but that's actually causing me a good bit of stress in itself, I don't really know why, I just feel like maybe I've been lying to myself and my therapist about my OCD. But I can't be lying because I've had OCD since 2012... I've just been confused lately by my OCD. Sorry for rambling, and again sorry for the really late reply! How are you doing today, God God is in Control?

@Drew777 Doing not too bad. So glad you got back to me. Was starting to wonder if you thought I was weak. But reading this made me smile. Thanks. My eldest daughter, my grandson's mother tested positive for covid and my grandson tested negative.

@God is in Control I'm sorry that you thought that I thought that... 😞 I don't think that you're weak, the opposite actually, I think that you're strong God is in Control! You've been through a lot and yet you still keep pushing forward and fighting back against your OCD and your other struggles, you have kept your faith in God and God will continue to see you through this my friend! 😀 I'm sorry that your eldest daughter tested positive for covid. 😞 I will keep her in my prayers and you and your whole family in my prayers friend.

@Drew777 By the way, I'm glad I could help you to smile. :)