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You have to do erp with this bro.
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How do I do it though, I was actually able to piece together when I did the most gross stuff, I was 13. But still, is there like a mantra or saying that you say while doing ERP?
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@IHateMyself An awesome mantra is "live in uncertainty."
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I agree! Starting therapy with a NOCD therapist REALLY helped me out of my rabbit holes. Also, medication helps me so much! Starting medication is what got me well enough to start therapy.
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@GeckoGirl3 Please talk to someone who can help you, like a therapist and doctor. You're not alone! You deserve the help you need to get well from the ocd!
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Yeah, I’m in that hole, I’m happy to see I’m not the only one, it just haunts me. I’ve stopped watching porn all together and I’m never looking back, I watched just vanilla for a couple of years, but the intrusive thoughts really kicked in, thank you for responding, I hope I’ll be able to start exposure therapy and possible medication
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@GeckoGirl3 Thank you, it’s just so frightening, I can’t believe some of the things I’ve done as a kid, everyone has seemed to tell me to move on and that I’m not that person anymore, but I panic a lot. Thank you for responding, I’ll definitely try the mantra you recommended!
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Just agree with the thoughts that’s what has helped me the most bro
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I’ll try it, it’s just scary you know, thanks for responding
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That’s a form of erp
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Call me I’ll let u know
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Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD
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Hello 😭, so uhm I’m kind of in the point of my POCD where I’m just tired. I just need to get it all out and get some sort of instruction of how to just idk live? So for me my childhood is pretty blurry. I have a few real event blended with false memory events there but other than that I’m a csa victim. And the way I tried to cope? By fetishising nyself, making CP of myself, seeing my life goal as being used, raped and a prostitue. Self destructive behaviour through talking to pedophiles and seeing my only worth as if I was sexually attractive. Which made me kind of numb to CP as a coping mechanism I guess. And heres’s where my main event of REOCD/false memory ocd comes in. I have a few events in my life when I’ve accidentally stumbled across CP ish mangas or just plan abuse and not had a big reaction. Some of them I even liked the story. And my ocd LOVES playing with it, making me truly believe I enjoy and get of from CP. I’ve also had quite a few dreams. A few days ago I had a dream about me getting triggered by something I did in the dream. Which I now can’t figure out if it actually was a dream. But also moments overall where I’ve unintentionally touched my private part while my siblings are in the room or when I found a guy 2 years younger than me pretty in 4th grade. Or a few of my only friends who turned out to be younger than me, and I had talked about sexual things (like fan fictions, my trauma ect) with them. AHSHB I absolutely hate ruminating and I’m tired so so so so so so tried 😭 idk help me? Please TT
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I have had the same false memory/instrusive image of me doing something horrible to someone when I was 12 and they were younger. It is a memory based on a real event. I truly don’t know if it’s real or not but obviously, the more I think about it the more I think it’s true. This has led my mind to become slightly paranoid. I worry that if this horrible image in my head is true then one day the person I might have hurt will come and k*ll me. I’m really scared I feel like I won’t feel better as long as this “memory” is in my head. Does anyone have advice?
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