- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Thanks for responding btw
I haven’t really been able to engage with someone meanfuly today
I understand what you mean like when im spiraling i dont wanna speak nobody at all. Maybe you can write in a journal and tell it about your situation.
That’s great advice I used to do that before and it worked but as always when I felt good I stopped doing it
@Legallyocd Same with me and resisting compulsions accepting their presence and staying in the present moment actually worked i swear theres so many damn layers to OCD.
@HiOcd With me the difficulty with all of us this is how do you explore your sexuality while practicing erp?
@Legallyocd I dont understand? Well personally me i legitimately questioned my sexuality when i was around 16 ((((( TW))))) because i remembered being touched by another kid when i was 5-6. Which in turn i had a flash back of that moment and made me question myself.
@HiOcd Something similar happen to me as well with what used to be my step dad. So I was exposed to sex at a really early age which often makes me think that this is a factor of why I have sexual obsessions
@Legallyocd Yeaj even tho ive already made peace with my past it developed into my ocd theme somehow.
@Legallyocd And im sorry to hear that. :/ You here now tho and nobody can take your future from you not even ocd.
@HiOcd I’m sorry you went through that too. It’s hard because sexual obsessions are so difficult to prove or disprove etc. I guess that’s why this theme stays stuck with people
@Legallyocd Thabk you for your kindness at first it felt was angry at myself for not stopping him, but ya know i was just a kid and he was an older kid had to forgive myself and him. And yeah it is because ocd will latch on to any speck of doubt and make it grow and grow until it pushes to do a compulsion to get rid of it. Mine went from checking sexual attraction, to mental attraction, emotional attraction, liking etc the lost goes on. I hate its so difficult for me to make friends my same sex anymore. Besides the ones already established. I fell like ive died and revived a million times already. Thanks so much for taking time out your day to respond to me. Is ok if i follow you?
@HiOcd Sure ! Thank you for talking to me too! I have written a post yesterday that I felt very lonely because I don’t have friends that I can really talk to about this that understand you know? Like there’s a section of me that thinks I may like women but even as I writw that it seems so ridiculous ans in my head. I’m still learning and everyday I’m doing my best to let go.
ive been feeling alone lately with these thoughts in my head. you’re not alone
i feel the same way
It’s hard because I getting off of my medication so it’s been a while since I felt this way
A therapist?
Yeah I’ve asked but she tells me that it get tricky when we have this subtype
My pocd makes me feel really lonely. I have friends who I love but they also struggle with mental health too, and when I'm there to listen and support them sometimes it's just too much and I feel like a bad friend. I can't help but feel like it's not the same, I know you can't compare your struggles to others but sometimes when my friend is telling me how they feel a lack of motivation and depressed I honestly wish I was just dealing with that instead of that and fearing that I'm a pedophile ontop of it. Like at least the thing you're dealing with isn't something that will make 90% of the population despise you, you know? I know that sounds bad and isn't very mature but I'm always the therapist friend for other people, and I'm the only one actually seeking help and trying to get better and I arguably have the worst thing to deal with. I feel like my friends only want to talk to me when they're depressed or need advice and I'm so tired of it.
I might call. Things haven’t gotten better since my last post. No I’m not going to hurt myself, I just need to speak to someone who won’t talk over me or tell me to take it to god or tell me “that’s just life”. Does anyone know where you can get a hug if you don’t live near anyone that’s a friend? That’s so pathetic but I literally just want a hug.
Is there a therapist or a specialist on here that I can briefly chat with? Or maybe an OCD conqueror who’s very familiar with the disorder? I need an experienced person to talk to me so bad. I just really wanna talk to somebody about what I’m going through so that I feel less alone, and so I can maybe get help managing my symptoms. Thank you in advance ♥️
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