You know sometimes I feel really lonely. Even with this app and another chat for some reason when o spiral I can’t really find someone to talk to until I feel a bit better. I understand that everyone has their lives but I wish I had a friend that knows what I’m going through and that I could call and talk to about all of this. I feel alone.

That’s great advice I used to do that before and it worked but as always when I felt good I stopped doing it

@Legallyocd Same with me and resisting compulsions accepting their presence and staying in the present moment actually worked i swear theres so many damn layers to OCD.

@HiOcd With me the difficulty with all of us this is how do you explore your sexuality while practicing erp?

@Legallyocd I dont understand? Well personally me i legitimately questioned my sexuality when i was around 16 ((((( TW))))) because i remembered being touched by another kid when i was 5-6. Which in turn i had a flash back of that moment and made me question myself.

@HiOcd Something similar happen to me as well with what used to be my step dad. So I was exposed to sex at a really early age which often makes me think that this is a factor of why I have sexual obsessions

@Legallyocd Yeaj even tho ive already made peace with my past it developed into my ocd theme somehow.

@Legallyocd And im sorry to hear that. :/ You here now tho and nobody can take your future from you not even ocd.

@HiOcd I’m sorry you went through that too. It’s hard because sexual obsessions are so difficult to prove or disprove etc. I guess that’s why this theme stays stuck with people

@Legallyocd Thabk you for your kindness at first it felt was angry at myself for not stopping him, but ya know i was just a kid and he was an older kid had to forgive myself and him. And yeah it is because ocd will latch on to any speck of doubt and make it grow and grow until it pushes to do a compulsion to get rid of it. Mine went from checking sexual attraction, to mental attraction, emotional attraction, liking etc the lost goes on. I hate its so difficult for me to make friends my same sex anymore. Besides the ones already established. I fell like ive died and revived a million times already. Thanks so much for taking time out your day to respond to me. Is ok if i follow you?

@HiOcd Sure ! Thank you for talking to me too! I have written a post yesterday that I felt very lonely because I don’t have friends that I can really talk to about this that understand you know? Like there’s a section of me that thinks I may like women but even as I writw that it seems so ridiculous ans in my head. I’m still learning and everyday I’m doing my best to let go.

It’s hard because I getting off of my medication so it’s been a while since I felt this way

Yeah I’ve asked but she tells me that it get tricky when we have this subtype