I cant take this hocd anymore. I wanna quit. It's been 4 months. Right now, I dont have anxiety like I had earlier. I dont get as many flashes as I got earlier. I no longer have these thoughts when I wake up ( my mornings used to be the worst). I just wanna sit in a corner and cry. It doesnt feel like hocd anymore. I'm just 15, I cant study. I just want to grab a blanket and cry listening to sad songs. My fears are coming true. Being gay doesnt scare me much like it did before. Someone please save me. I wanna quit life and just die peacefully so that I dont have any worries in life. Yeah, i might be sounding depressed because I am. I cant get a therapist, I dont wanna tell anyone about it. Guys I'm so sorry I'm saying this out of anger, I'm not suicidal. Idk what's going on. Can someone pls help?🥺😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Hey, don’t give up you’ll ve fine i relate to everything you just said and 10 times more than that when you question everything life gets like that.. but hold on you’re not alone

Ive been thru that depression, hoping the ocd would stop and not wanting to deal with this. I am a student too and i found it difficult to do homework and pay attention to lecture. trust me it is not going to be like this forever.it doesnt have to be like this forever. All u have to do is avoid the compulsion. Sounds easy but it isnt. Trust me tho ive been thru soocd and it was horrible. Ive gotten over it and all i did was avoid the rumination and the compulsion, ignore the thoughts, and its gone away. I want to give the glory to God that i have been able to overcome it. instead of listening to music that makes u sad, listen to uplifting music. I liked listening to For King and Country during my battle. You'll be just fine. Fight it : )