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The urgency is what stands out to me. Urgency can often be a red flag/give away that OCD is trying to dig its heels in. Sometimes there is a "need to know" element - going along with a fear that, somehow if I don't know I'll be uncomfortable forever. So maybe that's the fear you'll have to sit with- not traditionally the fear that you might be a different sexual orientation, but rather, the fear that you may never know 100% and that might make you uncomfortable somehow. There are some things in life we will never know 100%, many things in life / if not all are not 100%. So your recovery i think based on what you said will probably come down to releasing your need of NEEDING to know the outcome and being 100% sure.