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- 3y
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- 3y
Hey, please don't end your life. This is not the solution. I know you must be going through a lot. But I promise you, things will definately get better. Everyone makes mistakes. We're all human. Please stay.
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- 3y
Thank you for this, I just feel really scared. My therapist doesn’t really do much, she talks and sends some breathing exercises help. She tries to be understanding and empathetic, but still, my OCD has flared up a lot since my brother died last year, I feel like he looks down on me and hates me
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- 3y
@IHateMyself You're welcome. I know it must be so so hard for you right and that you might be feeling very scared but please remember that things will absolutely hey better. Please try your best not to ruminate or do any kind of compulsions including ruminating, seeking reassurance, confession, etc The compulsions makes the OCD worse. I know, it's so so hard to stop doing the compulsions but please try your best to not do any compulsions. Also, I think this therapist isn't helping you and is making your OCD worse, I think you can search for a better therapist. What about a NOCD therapist? Also, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure your brother loves you so much. He always will love you so much. Your brother absolutely doesn't look down on you and he absolutely doesn't hate you. Stay strong, buddy. ❤️
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- 3y
@itsAnna Things will absolutely get better*
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@itsAnna I sadly don’t have insurance and the costs are really expensive, I really don’t know where to turn to
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@itsAnna I think if this therapist isn't helping you and is making your OCD worse then you can search for a better therapist. What about a OCD therapist?*
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@IHateMyself I'm sorry to hear that. I know they are expensive but please don't give up. Please remember that things will get better. Please stay. There is hope. Also, can you talk to your family about your OCD? Maybe they can help you find a better therapist?❤️ Also I'm sorry I don't know the meaning of insurance. English isn't my first language 😭
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- 3y
Please call the national suicide prevention hotline 1-800-273-8255 Or text the crisis text line 741741
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- 3y
People don't report posts from people seeking reassurance to be mean. They do because they know giving reassurance only makes things worse in the long run. Seeking reassurance is a compulsion. Yes, it relieves your anxiety short term, but it also increases the strength and number of your intrusive thoughts. It also makes your OCD worse. Suicide is not the answer. If you haven't already, please get a counselor that understands OCD and specializes in ERP. You don't have to keep letting OCD control your life. Recovery won't come quick or easy, but it is possible.
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- 3y
I don’t know how to take it, I’ve just done so many gross stuff as a kid, like I’ve never assaulted or done anything like that, but still gross, my mom says I was a kid and everyone does dumb stuff, and that I’ve learned, but I can’t. I don’t deserve the family I have, I hate myself so much, always have, but OCD has made me realize this so much more, I think it’s won
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@IHateMyself It only wins if you quit and stop fighting.
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- 3y
I am sending you all my love. Please stay. Please don't end your life.
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- 3y
Please please, don’t do this. There were thoughts and things I didn’t think I would never get rid of, I didn’t want to get out of bed, and I know you’ve heard this 100 times, but it does get better. It really does, even on days you feel like you’re at you worse, it will get better. I didn’t believe that for a very long time, but now I do. You should definitely go see a different therapist, and the suicide hotline will help you as well.
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- 3y
I don’t care if everything you’re afraid of is true, I don’t care if you are the most horrible person, let’s say all your ocd is true, you deserve to be alive. You are a human being with a 1 in a 7 billion life, you are valuable at your worst just as you are valuable at your best. Right now you are in a lot of pain and that’s ok, give your self empathy and compassion and love. And please please remember there is nothing in life that you can’t overcome. Nothing.
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- 3y
Thank you, I’ve done a lot I regret, but I just want to be the best I can be now and move forward, so that I can be enough for my mom
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- 3y
Having someone to get better for us a blessing. And by getting better for them you will get better for yourself in return
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- 25w
i feel like i have been posting a lot about this and i will try to stop since now but i just don't know where to start or what to do, and i can't take therapy right now either. my event is about something that did actually happen; i had a boyfriend and we had a 1.5 age difference (i know this sounds stupid) but the thing is that we both started to sext a lot since he was 14 and i was 15. we shared audios videos pictures ect and i don't know how to just let this go, even when i know that i never really forced him into anything and i was always constantly worried about him being comfortable, when to stop and ect. the memories keep coming back to my mind and the guilt is eating me up slowly because i keep thinking that i'm a predator or a groomer or something like that. i don't know how to deal with the what ifs either, lately i haven't stopped thinking what if i sexually harassed or sexually exploited him or something like that. how do i deal with the cycle of guilt and constant what ifs if i also feel like my event is worse than others i've seen? please help me with this. it's getting a lil tiring and even if somedays i know how to deal with this, i still get really triggered sometimes. this wouldn't even bother me before, i wish i could just get back in time before this theme popped into my mind. my life has been a hell since then and i live constantly scared and suicidal.
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- 20w
I know this isn’t healthy but I’m in a really bad place. If I actually did something so disgusting I don’t deserve to live. I know me dying would just cause more pain but I feel it’s what I deserve. I confessed on here, which I know I shouldn’t have, but being ignored is making me worry that my actions were actually unacceptable
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- Date posted
- 20w
All the past stuff can’t seem to let go of me. I lied, I normalized horrible things, I’ve tried to be moral in an immoral environment. Two people are dead and I could’ve done something. One of them probably deserved it. They were a pedophile, and I know the relationship they had with me was horrible. The other was a close friend. We were in that environment together, and while I grew away from it, he got further into it. And now he’s dead, hanged himself over some sick perversion someone placed in his mind. I’ve seen such sick things. I knew things were wrong. I tried telling people. I told that friend, it isn’t normal. Isn’t this stuff wrong? Aren’t we being influenced? He didn’t see it. I should’ve tried harder to make him see my way. I’m away from all of it. But he never got to get away. I remember telling people I knew from that environment, those online spaces. Since I was sixteen, I knew it was off. I knew these ideas planted in our heads were sick. I tried to convince people when I turned eighteen, but nobody saw it. Everyone was still brain washed. I’m a horrible person, I haven’t done enough to stop anything. I’ve always had a passion to help people, but I never was able to. I’ve been uncomfortable with sex for a while, but I can’t stop. I remember being uncomfortable with a girl in my school. She was really sexual towards me. I tried to tell the office, nobody listened, it’s just a crush. And then I started to like it, but it still felt wrong. And then she got expelled, and I was telling people she harassed me. Nobody really took it serious, it was just funny, so I exaggerated and said she squeezed my crotch and it hurt. Then people finally sympathized with me. There was another lie, a lie that still hurts me. There was a girl in our class. Everyone made jokes about her, I tried to be nice and talk to her, but then she got a bit creepy towards me. She wouldn’t stop following me. It got uncomfortable. What did I do? I lied again, because everyone started making jokes about how she liked me and I was uncomfortable. I said she made a suggestive comment to me, and they all laughed. I just wanted it to stop. I lied, again. I am deceitful. That poor girl wrote in my yearbook and thanked me for being a good friend, but I made her into a joke just to save my own skin. I am a coward, I hurt people, and I deserve to be put down like an animal. I’m sorry for making myself seem like someone else, I tried to help as much people as I could, I tried. All I want is to be good, but too much bad has happened. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to try and redeem myself everyone. You all are so strong. I’m not going to harm myself, but I accept that I have evil within me.
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