I feel so normal now. I had a thought and it was like “I don’t want to be with him” and I felt really peaceful Bc of the music playing but then I got a little anxiety like my stomach turned and I’m trying to say “no I don’t” and now I just feel uneasy. Like when I said no I don’t it sounded like a lie. Not having anxiety with my thoughts makes it all seem so real

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apricotallie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

i think feeling peaceful during these thoughts means growth! you're doing the good work, and the thoughts aren't hurting you as much.

moonstar

Date posted: 4y

I completely understand this. The way I looked at it was because I felt peaceful about it wasn’t because I didn’t want to be with him I was peaceful because my brain thought that was the solution to being peaceful. I dont want to break up with him I want to break up with the thoughts

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

I don’t want it to be true but I’ve started to think about it like it is

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Date posted: 4y

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cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

Okay. Because my cousin (who is overly protective of me) keeps pointing out everything bad about him, and I won’t lie he has a grumpy streak (nothing abusive or anything like that) but Is just comfortable enough to kind of let out his grumpiness around me, and she keeps saying he doesn’t respect me. So I’ve been really over analyzing that and feeling like I should be more upset about it

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain She says he criticizes me a lot and I don’t see that he does it often. He does occasionally but I also criticize him sometimes idk

cozymushroom

Date posted: 4y

@BlueMountain Because now I am just focused on that stuff. And like of course our relationship has problems as every single one does but in the midst of ocd I really don’t need other things to focus on. Both my partner and I are very open about our feelings and needs

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