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Ignored again. Of course
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I struggle with the same theme. Have you tried reaching out for therapy? Today was my first day & I have heard it helps significantly.
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I have a therapist she didn’t really help much I don’t think. She just kept repeating the same things. I feel so alone on here now
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@Just Breathe ❤️ A therapist from NOCD? I have seen two therapists that did not help me at all, in fact triggered me & was telling me to do compulsions….it is very important that they understand ocd.
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@WE CAN DO THIS Yes she is. She’s very informative and helpful in ways. I just got her after I lost my other therapist that was through NOCD too. I think it’s just me. I don’t know what to do now. I’m scared
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Because reality is it is your ocd & ocd makes you doubt ocd. It’s the doubting disorder that’s why you have to take control and say okay if it is I don’t give a damn anymore. If it isn’t even better
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Oh ok
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@Just Breathe ❤️ You got this girl! Believe in yourself. I know how tough this can be. But believe that you can do this
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@WE CAN DO THIS Thank you I appreciate your help!
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It's called groinal response and isn't actually indicative of real arousal. Also, you should be seeing an OCD specialist as opposed to a general therapist.
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Yes but I felt things throughout my whole body not just down there. It was weird and hard to explain. I’m scared if it was real and not ocd. I have a therapist through NOCD so she’s an ocd specialist
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It was like my body lit up does that make sense? Or my blood pressure went up maybe my heart rate too. It’s blurry to me now but I’m scared. I don’t want to be attracted to my niece that the intrusive image was about! I don’t want it to be true but it literally felt like it was. False feelings false attraction I don’t know. I was reading a romance story that was very steamy and that’s when the thought came up and the weird physical sensations so I don’t know. I feel so bad about it
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@Just Breathe ❤️ That sounds like anxiety, not actual arousal.
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@Learned5dragons It didn’t feel like anxiety though? But immediately afterwards I burst into tears because it felt so real
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@Just Breathe ❤️ I would do research on arousal noncordanance. Also, the feelings you describe do sound like anxiety.
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@Learned5dragons Ok thank you I appreciate it I will look into it
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@Learned5dragons Again though still only explains down there not whole body experience
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You have to start learning to go with the uncertainty. Maybe it is maybe it isn’t? Maybe I will maybe I won’t? Who cares! & I’m not saying that to be rude. That’s the attitude you have to have from what I’m understanding.
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But I’m scared what if it is the maybe and not the maybe not. I can’t accept or handle that
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@Just Breathe ❤️ But you can. It’s easier than what you’re dealing with right now about to loose your mind. Just try it
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I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.
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Hello 😭, so uhm I’m kind of in the point of my POCD where I’m just tired. I just need to get it all out and get some sort of instruction of how to just idk live? So for me my childhood is pretty blurry. I have a few real event blended with false memory events there but other than that I’m a csa victim. And the way I tried to cope? By fetishising nyself, making CP of myself, seeing my life goal as being used, raped and a prostitue. Self destructive behaviour through talking to pedophiles and seeing my only worth as if I was sexually attractive. Which made me kind of numb to CP as a coping mechanism I guess. And heres’s where my main event of REOCD/false memory ocd comes in. I have a few events in my life when I’ve accidentally stumbled across CP ish mangas or just plan abuse and not had a big reaction. Some of them I even liked the story. And my ocd LOVES playing with it, making me truly believe I enjoy and get of from CP. I’ve also had quite a few dreams. A few days ago I had a dream about me getting triggered by something I did in the dream. Which I now can’t figure out if it actually was a dream. But also moments overall where I’ve unintentionally touched my private part while my siblings are in the room or when I found a guy 2 years younger than me pretty in 4th grade. Or a few of my only friends who turned out to be younger than me, and I had talked about sexual things (like fan fictions, my trauma ect) with them. AHSHB I absolutely hate ruminating and I’m tired so so so so so so tried 😭 idk help me? Please TT
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TW Just saw a judge video where a girl was complaining about a mom suing her for money when her mom is her agent and gives her younger sister (at 17 years old) better work because they exploit her body and THEY SHOWED PICTURES. I saw it and was like “oh my gosh is that actually what I think it is?” Then after realizing it’s like I was too shocked to look away. What is bothersome is that I wasn’t immediately repulsed enough to turn it off and didn’t immediately do so and when the picture kept showing up it’s like I kept looking at it to make sure what I saw was actually what I saw. Also, the false memory is hitting hard because now I’m wondering if I had intrusive thoughts judging her body. Now I feel like a perv and pedo 😭 It’s like I’m anxious over not being anxious enough about the situation while actually being incredibly anxious. I don’t if that made ANY sense but someone please help. I will say my mind was already incredibly vulnerable because of burnout and other very stressful events recently. Still, I feel terrible and feel I deserve to be in jail.
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