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Ignored again. Of course
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I struggle with the same theme. Have you tried reaching out for therapy? Today was my first day & I have heard it helps significantly.
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I have a therapist she didn’t really help much I don’t think. She just kept repeating the same things. I feel so alone on here now
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@Just Breathe ❤️ A therapist from NOCD? I have seen two therapists that did not help me at all, in fact triggered me & was telling me to do compulsions….it is very important that they understand ocd.
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@WE CAN DO THIS Yes she is. She’s very informative and helpful in ways. I just got her after I lost my other therapist that was through NOCD too. I think it’s just me. I don’t know what to do now. I’m scared
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Because reality is it is your ocd & ocd makes you doubt ocd. It’s the doubting disorder that’s why you have to take control and say okay if it is I don’t give a damn anymore. If it isn’t even better
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Oh ok
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@Just Breathe ❤️ You got this girl! Believe in yourself. I know how tough this can be. But believe that you can do this
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@WE CAN DO THIS Thank you I appreciate your help!
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It's called groinal response and isn't actually indicative of real arousal. Also, you should be seeing an OCD specialist as opposed to a general therapist.
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Yes but I felt things throughout my whole body not just down there. It was weird and hard to explain. I’m scared if it was real and not ocd. I have a therapist through NOCD so she’s an ocd specialist
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It was like my body lit up does that make sense? Or my blood pressure went up maybe my heart rate too. It’s blurry to me now but I’m scared. I don’t want to be attracted to my niece that the intrusive image was about! I don’t want it to be true but it literally felt like it was. False feelings false attraction I don’t know. I was reading a romance story that was very steamy and that’s when the thought came up and the weird physical sensations so I don’t know. I feel so bad about it
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@Just Breathe ❤️ That sounds like anxiety, not actual arousal.
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@Learned5dragons It didn’t feel like anxiety though? But immediately afterwards I burst into tears because it felt so real
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@Just Breathe ❤️ I would do research on arousal noncordanance. Also, the feelings you describe do sound like anxiety.
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@Learned5dragons Ok thank you I appreciate it I will look into it
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@Learned5dragons Again though still only explains down there not whole body experience
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You have to start learning to go with the uncertainty. Maybe it is maybe it isn’t? Maybe I will maybe I won’t? Who cares! & I’m not saying that to be rude. That’s the attitude you have to have from what I’m understanding.
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But I’m scared what if it is the maybe and not the maybe not. I can’t accept or handle that
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@Just Breathe ❤️ But you can. It’s easier than what you’re dealing with right now about to loose your mind. Just try it
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Bruh today I was on insta and I saw a vid of a 11 yo, it caused me to feel what I hope is false attraction and groinal response, I got worried I was a p, and I couldn’t resist doing compulsions. I haven’t gotten a diagnosis for pocd yet, but i hope it is pocd and that I’m not an actual p. This stuff that keeps happening basically convinces me that I’m a p :( so yeah, my days ruined, idk what to do now. Comment anything y’all want.
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*tmi warning* I'm so worried im a P. Ive been crying daily unable to do anything else but ruminate over my real events. When i was 14 (before ocd) i was watching adult content and it was censored. The woman had similar features like hair and skin color as my niece. I remember noticing that and saying "huh i guess I'll imagine that as the adult version of my niece" and I did and after i was finished i moved on and didnt think anything was wrong. I dont know if i ever thought about that again? Its so blurry ocd keeps saying i did it again in a different time but i dont remember its too blurry and its scaring me so badly! I didnt even remember this till like literally last week and i wanted to die! Im 20 for context. When I remembered i immediately broke down in tears. I vaguely rmemeber this other thought i had of her when self pleasuring when I was 16??? I think it was a testing thought out of distress? But im not sure at all! It was extremely vague image and unrealistic i dont think I liked it but maybe i did?! Im so distressed its like i remmeber 2 versions of this particular event which is why I think its ocd false memories from there. Ive been ruminating and spiraling for almost a week. I keep crying i havent ate well at all in days ive been honestly dehydrating myself and i cannot sleep. I feel like a monster. I did the mistake of researching last night and kept comparing myself to the "criteria" of those sickos and like I felt so distressed. I also have been asking ai for hours on end everyday. I feel so distressed im literally crying rn as i write this i cant calm down i feel like this sick individual even tho I dont even like thinking of that at all i dont think I meant ill intent when i was a teen but its killing me inside. I would NEVER harm anyone nor want to or plan to, deep down i know I would never act out in those evil ways but like whats killing me is what if im attracted?! Is this a sign?! Am i one of those people?! Am i attracted to my niece bc of those 2 maybe even 3(??)thoughts years ago?! Did i mean ill intent?! Am I an actual danger?! Am I a monster??? I have so many urges to confess to my mom im so scared what this all means or could mean. I feel so alone and scared. Like legit whenever i get intrusive thoughts about gross stuff i feel disgusted and anxious and push it away. Those thoughts do not bring me pleasure whatsoever but this real event is making me doubt my own identity 😔
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I've been good for a long while but I'm feeling very down and depressed, tired of dealing with all of this. I've been researching things and trying to treat them as exposures, and I'm doing okay but it just feels horrible. Researching things about pedophiles, sexual disorders and dysfunction, appropriate and innapopriate sexual fantasies, etc. I hate all of it. I just wish I could feel okay, go back in time and change all the things I've done, I wish I could just understand why I have to deal with this.
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