Okay I’m literally so anxious right now. I was watching porn and Before I continue it’s something that I am for sure going to stop. I am a Christian and I have felt convicted by the Holy Spirit to stop viewing it so I am no longer viewing it. But the last time I viewed it I was scrolling through videos and you know how the videos have a thumbnail, well as I was scrolling I panicked because I think or thought I saw a child on one of the thumbnails. I panicked and scrolled passed it and just got off of it all together. I’m afraid this means I viewed CP. I would never want to do that. Is there anyone that has experienced something similar? I’m trying to sit with the uncertainty. Just feel like I’m a really bad person.

By responding I mean being defensive, trying to reason as to why you’re not or you are a bad person etc, responding to these intrusive thoughts. Unfortunately as much as we want to do it, we never will “figure it out” and it just makes our ocd worse in the long term. POCD is absoloutely mentally shattering and I’ve been there. It’s good that you recognise that it’s ocd, but now it just sounds like you need to adjust the way you respond to these thoughts. I think your post in itself is reinforcing your ocd as you are looking for reassurance! Totally natural, which is why it’s so unfortunate that it makes ocd stronger. It’s a battle! But you can do it :D please look at that channel. It’s very helpful

@philmitchellswag What is the channel called?

@Anonymous15 It is called OCD and Anxiety :) you’re not alone at all! It’s a scary topic for people to talk about so it can feel very isolating. But you definitely are not by yourself