It’s like the feeling became apart of me now… I knew it was ROCD in the beginning and it was difficult but I was still able to make love to my partner still… but the more I got depressed I felt myself drifting away from him… trust me when I say I loved to touch my partner cuddle and give long hugs. That was my favorite partner of the day was the long hugs. ❤️ but since we’ve both been depressed we haven’t been doing that much as of lately…
It’s like I want to break up… my mental state is so bad I just let the thoughts come… I am just so tired…
My friend asked does he give enough love? Lately it’s difficult bc we are both seriously depressed. How can people show love when they are both deeply depressed
i am in a long term relationship. it is normal for people to go through periods where romance is on the back burner. it doesn't mean you love each other less. it's a normal phase everyone goes through for one reason or another. i think it would be comforting to have a heart-to-heart conversation with your boyfriend about how you're feeling. and i am sure your boyfriend would also like to talk through what he's going through. having this conversation i feel is not seeking reassurance over your OCD, but it is necessary to discuss things like this between you and your partner. your friend doesn't seem to be helping you in this situation.
We have talked about it. We’re both very stressed bc we have to move out of our roommates home by January and it’s causing us to freak out badly. This is a first for us to be like this in the 11 years we’ve been together. I try to avoid talking to my friend bc of house super critical she can be. I’ve been deeply depressed for over a year bc of a conversation my partner had with me over a year ago. He told me that he opened Pandora’s box from that conversation and knows how bad mental state has gotten. I told him everything that I’ve been feeling and how I don’t feel like things are the same anymore since that conversation. How I am basically in a losing battle with my depression that I had thoughts of suicide. I told him that he’s the only person I’ve ever had ROCD with and how I wish I had a normal mindset. I told him how much I hate myself everyday. He said he hasn’t liked himself either with his depression. I’m scared of moving, I’m scared of change in general even though I know it needs to happen. I told him how I’ve been even doubting his love for me bc he feels like a stranger to me right now.. it’s torture for me.. He told me if he didn’t love me he wouldn’t be with me at all. He said that he’s not willing to walk away from our relationship. I’ve told him that I don’t even have a sex drive bc I’m that deeply depressed… I even talked about my uncle who passed away recently how I lost the only father figure I’ve ever had in my life since my real father was in and out of my life. I told him how during the funeral I didn’t cry once and it made me feel heartless.. how I didn’t even panic about my own mother’s health problems. I felt no love for anyone and even saying it feels fake. My mind is completely warped from my obsessive beahavior. I even asked why he loves me and he told me out of everyone in his life I am the only person who never gave up on him and who has faith in him.