Is checking same sex pornography for groinal response a compulsion? I feel alone dirty, scared depressed sad

Don't do that you'll just end up more confused and upset. You've gotta let your anxiety be there and you have to accept it. It won't last forever. Embrace the suck. I've been exactly where you are.

Because your putting so much attention to that one part of the body that any sensation will feel like your getting an erection

Look you know deep down who you are. Now OCD will try to say otherwise. But your testing your reactions to pornography which pornography is bad within itself but sometimes your bad won't be aroused doesn't always mean something.

And that voice is your OCD—the same thing that probably causes the erection. It’s going to take a lot of time and effort to accept this without following through with compulsive behavior

Yes checking is a compulsion

Then why do I always get a groinal response!! This is not normal for a straight man

You've gotta accept the uncertainty of OCD

But I highly suggest you stay away from porn man

I think porn isn’t necessarily a bad thing unless you are using it compulsively, but that’s my opinion! Also the reason why you are having a response only to that type of porn may be because your OCD is causing the reaction—my OCD can make me feel TONS of things, both physically and mentally. But also, if you had those feelings before it become an OCD thing, maybe they are genuine feelings and maybe it’s time to try and accept the fact that you have them.

Well then that tells you your answer—your compulsion started it and your OCD fed off of it. The thing with compulsions is the more you do it, the less satisfied you feel, and the more your OCD wants you to do it. Maybe take a step away from the porn then as a way to stop the compulsions—maybe put a kid lock on your web server—just to stop the temptation and give your mind a break.

I also get many groinal responses from this... I feel like I am denial

I don’t enjoy the porn and I don’t masturbate to it but I am very scared and it makes me very sad

It even feels like I like the pornography I keep browsing through it compulsively however I feel like it’s genuine interest

I thought maybe all pornography would induce a response because of its sexual nature however that’s false because I tested with pornography that included old women (which I’m not attracted to) and I didn’t get a groinal response therefore it is the men I am attracted to ???????

I can’t accept them I would rather die than be gay Im not homophobic but I don’t want to live a gay life I would rather be tortured to death

And I only started watching it after I went deep in ocd

But there will always be a voice in my head saying “you got a semi to gay porn”

I can’t take it

https://www.google.co.uk/amp/s/www.intrusivethoughts.org/blog/whats-going-ocd-arousal//amp

Are you seeing a therapist about this?

I wonder if this erection from the same sex is like a "jealousy" I suffer too from this

Yes, it’s a compulsion. I did the same thing years ago.