Anyone else feel like it’s so real.. like the thoughts and feelings. Feels like I’m in denial I hate it

I wish we can just go back to us

Me too.

@Anonymous It’s been almost a year for me, stay strong you guys

I can talk if you like 😊

@BradOCD I feel so sick. That girl who posted literally seems exactly like me :( I can’t do this anymore.

@OCD33 Even I found that post relateable and it scared me too. But then I feel the compulsions kicking in. For example I just asked myself “is it wrong to stay in my relationship if I’m gay… yes… I need to come out… now!” And it was so urgent and it made me feel anxious and scared and sad all at the same time.

@OCD33 We are feeling the same bc we are dealing with OCD. We gotta fight this disease one day at a time

@BradOCD I’m sorry if it triggered you or anyone.. I’m just completely drained and needed reassurance (which is bad I know)

@BradOCD She has ocd though. :/ I have never been turned on just looking at the male body. I need touch, emotion, safety, etc

@allyocd You didn’t trigger me. The other post did about her saying she’s a lesbian.

@allyocd Oh sorry it wasn’t your post that triggered me it was another one from earlier about fluid sexuality.

@OCD33 But that’s not unusual, I’m normally the same. I find a women attractive then when it comes to intimacy I feel quite nervous but then if they make me feel safe and secure then I get turned on… that’s just human nature

@BradOCD Sorry for the confusion!

@BradOCD I did weird stuff as a kid that points to I’m in denial. I cannot shake this trigger and I feel like this is my life now.

@allyocd No need to be sorry 😊

@OCD33 All kids did weird stuff. I remember being about 9 years old and we both decided to kiss to see what it would be like. But we were kids. I never thought about it again, it was a silly distant memory. But now I kinda wish I hadn’t thought about that because even myself right now is worrying that that was another sign.

@BradOCD I thought when people find out they are gay they are happy because they can finally be who they are. If this is my truth I am devasted and not happy. I thought people with HOCD were scared of being gay and people who are actually gay are scared of what others would say.

@OCD33 I feel/felt exactly the same! Deveststed, ashamed, miserable. All I feel now is trauma, it feels traumatic. And it’s hard because again going back to compulsions. Whenever I had compulsions in the past I’d say “this feels right, it’ll make me feel better” and that’s sort of what I’m saying to myself now. But it’s like is this compulsion or is this me idk anymore. And all my checking that used to give relief now gives very very little. I’ve ran out of things to hold onto.

@BradOCD Nothing gives me relief anymore. It all feels so real and miserable. It’s also on my mind 24/7 ! I cannot do anything without it being there.

@OCD33 I completely relate to this. My only relief is sleep. I used to always be an early riser and would try and do as much as possible in the day. My partner and I used to wake up really early in the morning and just chat for hours. Now all I do is sleep to get away from it all

@BradOCD Sleep is the only thing I like to do now. It’s been 2 years for me and I’m still suffering. I used to enjoy free time and now I absolutely dread it because it gives me time to think. I’m a teacher and have the summers off and I hate it

I feel this.. being in a relationship is so hard and having HOCD.