Hey Christians! I’m currently listening to Christian music when honestly I’ve been so distant from God. I feel like I’ve let God down and I’ve been so angry because of what I’m going through. I don’t know if this is just OCD or what but while I was listening to music, my mind is trying to convince me that God is saving me from being a p or something like that. What the heck! I’m hoping that that’s just an intrusive thought. I pray to God I never have been or never will be a horrible monster. I have goals in life. Plans for my future and I feel like this theme is going to ruin that for me. I tell myself the enemy is a liar but yeah that makes me feel like I’m lying to myself to so I don’t know what to do. I don’t even want to read my bible or worship because I feel like everything gets worse when I do that stuff or even pray. The more I get close to God the more downhill everything seems to go. It’s weird! I love God I do but I’ve prayed and prayed for a miracle and I feel voiceless or hopeless at this point. I feel like I’m shut out or God doesn’t hear me. I don’t know if anyone related but if you do or understand please just send a little prayer. I’m losing hope 💔

POCD

OCDHaver

Date posted: 4y

OCD has a way of attacking the things you love and value the most, more than likely, you feel this way because you love God and very much aren’t a p, you’re just really scared you are one and the fear of losing a connection with God, so your OCD is most likely using this as fuel and attacking you with it. I hope you find peace soon, I’ve seen you post a lot recently, and I’m really rooting for you, please seek a therapist if you can or try practicing ERP, wishing the best for you!

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Yeah that makes sense. I know, I’ve posted a lot I really need to work on that just really hurting because of some things that have happened. I have a therapist and I’m currently working on ERP but it’s been rough work. I appreciate your help thank you!

OCDHaver

Date posted: 4y

@Just Breathe ❤️ Just trust the process, I know it’s difficult. I have real event OCD, mainly things I did when I was 13/14 and stuff after that really bothers me, gross tuff too. I’ve done a lot of bad and questionable stuff since then, I’ve confessed it all to my mom, friends and other support groups, they all say I’m not a monster and that I was just a hormonal kid. I have things in my past that really scare me, yours just seems to be intrusive thoughts and fears, if people tell me I’m not a monster and that I can move forward, I’m sure everyone would most definitely say that to you, I hope you take care, I can tell my your posts how caring and a good person you must be, please remember that, I hope the best for you!

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

@OCDHaver I totally get it. I’ve made mistakes too and it really tears me down sometimes. OCD loves to latch onto the past. I know from experience unfortunately I’ve dealt with real event ocd too. Thank you that means a lot. I hope the best for you as well!

r é

Date posted: 4y

Hey, trust me when I say I understand you. But here’s the encouragement: Our feelings aren’t the truth, what the Word says is the truth. God loves us intensely whether or not we feel like it. It’s not about us, it’s about who he is. God is love. When prayers feels like a compulsion and causes me anxiety, I just talk to Jesus vulnerably and honestly as if I’m talking to a therapist or a friend. Blessings✨

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

Thank you I really appreciate it. God bless

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