Was triggered quite badly by a video of a women saying how she goes off men when they like her back and all the tiktok comments were saying it’s comphet and she’s either a lesbian or asexual- these are two things I worry I am and just don’t realise :( I haven’t had a crush in years and I’ve experienced going off of men after finding out they like me back- the master doc made me bawl my eyes out :( I’m trying so hard to not think into it and just let the anxiety be but it just feels like I need to figure it out all the time or that I’m in denial and lying to myself and others all the time- I’m so tired

that feeling of needing to figure it out is so familiar to me and it sucks so much. i’m really sorry you’re struggling. you’re not alone

Sorry you’re also going through this :( I just feel like I’m lying to myself all the time it’s horrible, finding out about comphet really ruined my life :(

@Melodyocd Yeah comphet is another way for your ocd to “get proof”. Try to sit with the uncertainty. It’s a horrible feeling but OCD is just finding another way to get in.

@OCD33 I hope you’re right, because so many signs seem to be pointing to comphet for me… I haven’t had a crush for years :(

@Melodyocd OCD makes you even doubt if you have ocd !! It feels so so real :( but if it didn’t feel real then it wouldn’t be the disorder it is. Do some self care this weekend and DO NOT research anything. Just feeds its. Are you in therapy?

@OCD33 I’ll try my best, thank you 💖 and kind of, I went through therapy with nocd and now only see my therapist every other month. I’m doing A LOT better than I was, as before I couldn’t even leave the house and felt sick everyday from it all. Now I just kind of feel numb to all emotions instead and feel like I’m lying whenever I talk about crushes and things, which sucks but I guess is an improvement

@Melodyocd I’m very much in the same boat. I wasn’t even functioning and out of my mind. I can work now and am doing every day things but the thoughts are very much there every day. But at least I’m functioning (how sad of us to say that as like a positive 😑) are you on meds?

@OCD33 I guess it is positive though, it’s just unfortunate that we’re still going through this :( and yeah I am! I’m on sertraline (Zoloft) and it’s helped load but I think it’s the reason I feel no emotions anymore

@Melodyocd How long have you been suffering for?

@OCD33 I’m 22 now, but I first got this theme when I was 16, went to cbt therapy and pretty much fully recovered until January this year I had a huge spike (finding the master doc) and fell down a dark hole. Went through nocd for therapy which helped a lot but now I’m here

I dare not go anywhere near that Master Doc.

Yeah do not lol

Yeah I’d advise against it-ruined my life :(