Melodyocd
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- 3y
annagrace43annagrace43
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- 3y
that feeling of needing to figure it out is so familiar to me and it sucks so much. i’m really sorry you’re struggling. you’re not alone
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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- 3y
Sorry you’re also going through this :( I just feel like I’m lying to myself all the time it’s horrible, finding out about comphet really ruined my life :(
OCD33OCD33
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
@Melodyocd Yeah comphet is another way for your ocd to “get proof”. Try to sit with the uncertainty. It’s a horrible feeling but OCD is just finding another way to get in.
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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- 3y
@OCD33 I hope you’re right, because so many signs seem to be pointing to comphet for me… I haven’t had a crush for years :(
OCD33OCD33
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- 3y
@Melodyocd OCD makes you even doubt if you have ocd !! It feels so so real :( but if it didn’t feel real then it wouldn’t be the disorder it is. Do some self care this weekend and DO NOT research anything. Just feeds its. Are you in therapy?
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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- 3y
@OCD33 I’ll try my best, thank you 💖 and kind of, I went through therapy with nocd and now only see my therapist every other month. I’m doing A LOT better than I was, as before I couldn’t even leave the house and felt sick everyday from it all. Now I just kind of feel numb to all emotions instead and feel like I’m lying whenever I talk about crushes and things, which sucks but I guess is an improvement
OCD33OCD33
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- 3y
@Melodyocd I’m very much in the same boat. I wasn’t even functioning and out of my mind. I can work now and am doing every day things but the thoughts are very much there every day. But at least I’m functioning (how sad of us to say that as like a positive 😑) are you on meds?
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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- 3y
@OCD33 I guess it is positive though, it’s just unfortunate that we’re still going through this :( and yeah I am! I’m on sertraline (Zoloft) and it’s helped load but I think it’s the reason I feel no emotions anymore
OCD33OCD33
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@Melodyocd How long have you been suffering for?
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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- 3y
@OCD33 I’m 22 now, but I first got this theme when I was 16, went to cbt therapy and pretty much fully recovered until January this year I had a huge spike (finding the master doc) and fell down a dark hole. Went through nocd for therapy which helped a lot but now I’m here
Sparker1289Sparker1289
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- 3y
I dare not go anywhere near that Master Doc.
OCD33OCD33
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 3y
Yeah do not lol
MelodyocdMelodyocd
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- 3y
Yeah I’d advise against it-ruined my life :(
JustmesadlyJustmesadly
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- 3y
Stop reading the master doc it’s the stupidest thing ever. There’s no text book straight, pan, gay, lesbian. You are you you are and you look who you like ! You’ll feel so much better when you let go of this crap
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