- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
yay!!! you got this. proud of you for sharing! wishing recovery your way, it does get better
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How are you doing with this? I’ve had it on and off and it terrifies me, I know this was 3 years ago so I’m wondering if it’s gotten better
@ocdissucky Hi, my apologies on the delayed reply! Hope all is well :) Truthfully speaking, it’s not at all even remotely comparable to when I posted this three years ago and that God I’m where I’m at in my recovery and remission and especially pertaining to this topic 🙏 However, it’s been a process to get this point since then 💯 A lot has changed in my life from three years ago and posting this specific post. From therapy types that I’ve been in, being vulnerable with my overall OCD in general and ultimately facing it all subtypes, triggers, etc. wise head on! This specific topic isn’t ever pleasant for me to have come up, be reminded of, etc. but I not take it with stride and grace. I’ve even come as far as watching the trailers for movies like Hannibal, etc. and even toyed with the idea of watching the movies as well. I haven’t yet, but that doesn’t mean that I won’t in the future. For example, I just watched a movie last night from 2006 called “The Hills Have Eyes” and didn’t even think twice about it and am entirely unbothered by having watched it after the fact. Very different from the main character in Hannibal (Dr. Lector) and overall storyline, but cannibalism is in the movie none the less. I hadn’t seen it since my teens and distinctly remember having watched it when I did and found it to unsettling back then as well, but on a surface level. Never to have imagined what that topic would have become and ultimately having my unknown and undiagnosed OCD and specifically Harm subtype be as triggered and attacked by the topic many years later. Ultimately, as scary as it can be and trust me when I tell you; I know all too well, it’s 100% possible to face the topic head on and overcome it! Not saying that it won’t still be unsettling for you (and that’s honestly a good thing in my opinion), but not allowing it to continue to control you, overwhelm you, etc. Hope this helps! Sending you the strength, positivity and hopefulness to overcome this 💪
Anyone experience this? I have had OCD for past 9 years, over the course of that time I have had multiple themes from POCD, false memory OCD, contamination OCD the list goes on. Right now I am struggling with the thought that an ex is going to harm me, my family and fiancé. I am about to get married and my fiancé makes me so happy I am in love and finally found the person that truly completes me. However, of course OCD latched onto that. My OCD convinces me that if my ex finds out I’m going to get married that he will harm me and my family. The other day I did a compulsion and looked at my blocked list which my ex and his family and friends are on, I quickly glanced at their little profile pics to make sure they were okay and that they weren’t planning on scheming to harm me and my family and my fiancé. Immediately after I did this I started to freak out, my OCD made me think I was a cheater and that I secretly want to reach out to this ex. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD from that situation because I went through a traumatic experience with this individual and this is what had lead me to believe that he will harm me. Anyone else experience similar?
So I have harm ocd for sure and I get triggered by some m1rder cases like for some reason my brain gets latched to them and the perpetrators my brain goes ‘what if they’d find you attractive’ ‘would you be one of their victims’ and it feels like they’re watching me, if that makes sense, like they’re watching me, is this a symptom of any type of OCD? Please no judgement I’m super scared and I hate that my brain does this
I am so tired of having intrusive thoughts everytime i try to eat anything cause my mind immediately goes to “what if this tastes like human meat” “what if the texture is like human meat” and i have to stop eating and i start crying it annoys me so bad and i lost some weight because of it i just want to be normal again and to stop these thoughts they happened out of nowhere and i talked to some people about it and they tell me what cannibals have said and it has made things so much worse tbh im just so exhausted and i wanna eat healthy again
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