It can be frustrating when you're able to label the compulsions but not resist them. Remember that OCD wasn't formed overnight and it won't go away overnight either. We have to start small with exposures and work our way up to the big ones. Creating a plan with your therapist to combat it can maybe help you have some self-compassion by recognizing it's a process! Whenever you feel that urgency and find yourself flip flopping between answers trying to "figure it out", I'd encourage you to take a second to stop and notice what you're feeling. Like you did here- labeling it as guilt! It's a lot easier to sit with once we've labeled it.